Thank you in confiding to us.
that took real courage.
you are probably stronger than you think. I know with medical assistance you can do this.
keep in touch
we are here,
we are listening
bizi

Thank you , you guys. I cry at the care you show. I feel so much better when I share hard times with you guys.
I am going to start with my Pdoc...do you think that's the way to go?

I have to get off these. See, with the vicodan, I am tapering off and I had been asking for lower miligrams and lower doses on my own for months now....then the hubby's meds come in the door and take over my entire thinking...I hoard them...taking them little by little. I am out of control, but as I was tapering off the vicoden well! I was so glad and I frigged it all up! OK, I need to take action now. I can do it...I just have to explain to my husband about whats going on. He understands no mental illness. Get this one! It may give you a giggle....he says, "It's all in your head"...um DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Of course it is!!! Haven't you been listening? Sheesh.
This is going to be so hard. I think the hopstital stay might work...anyone you guys know have a hospstay to wean off pain pills?

I am rooting for you.
bizi

Hi,

The hospital stay will depend on one of your doctors sending you there. That's my thought anyway.

M

Dear CBlue,

Wow, you already started a taper on your own .... successfully!!! that shows you have a good stock of willpower up your sleeve! KUDOS for that. it will make this process easier. ok, so then a a whole new stash showed up and .... BOOM!!! ack! the fact that drugs enter the household via hubby and then just "sit there, beckoning," makes your situation particularly hard. hoarding is another psych addiction st.

i think you will really need a rehab program - inpatient - because as i see it you need a "safe" place where there IS NO AVAILABILITY, while you get through the rehab process.

And yes, your pdoc will be the place to start. tell him the whole deal as you have done with us.

a rehab program should do two things:
1. get the drugs out of your system, physically
2. teach you to reprocess cravings and avoid cavings.

i would be sure to talk to your pdoc, as well as the therapists wherever you go to be treated, about the fact that your husband is prescribed pain pills, and so you are likely to have an available source - especially since he doesn't take them. i don't get why he picks them up if he doesn't want them and you may be able to persuade him not to do that. but if at some point he does have to use them himself, YOU need to be prepared.

i am sorry your hubby does not understand mental illness. addictions are also really hard to understand for some people. especially "all in your head" kinds of people.

after you are out of rehab, i would also encourage you to seek a support group especially if you still have cravings and themoreso if your hubby still keeps pills around waiting to expire.

we are always here of course. i apologize for my (typical) longwindedness.

take care and keep us posted.

waves

I made a mistake...my husband threw out the rest of his pills once I told him about my problem....he said he will never get them again. He dosen't know anything about addicition or anything...he never thought I would ever take them.
I went to my psychologist today...I told her all...she gave me some names of some out patient facilities. I left a message at 1 today.
Right now I am scared of the thought of inpatient.

Thank you waves!

CBLUE

It may seem like a mistake right now. But honestly you made no mistake.
It is your husband that made the mistake.

He brought the medicine into the house, left it were you could just pick
it up and take it. Now he has tried to help, by just getting rid of it.

But it will be okay, you have made the first step, by going to the pdoc,
and you have also made the 2nd step by calling the therapy place.

Now keep up with this. If you don't hear tomorrow, call them back.

I admire how you are handling this. And I believe you will make it through
this just fine.

Also if you have problems, call your pdoc back, they should be able to get
ahold of someone immediately for you.

Donna

NO, no...I didn't mean it was a mistake for my husband to throw them out...I meant I said something wrong in one of my other replies. I am glad he threw them out. I am a mental case though...the prob I am having right now is a mental addiciton to them I think...I don't know. When my husband got them meds he had no idea what it was or that I had a problem at all. Yes, one would say he must be so stupiid not to know what it is....well..I couldn't argue with that.

I spoke to a woman from the outpatient rehap house and she dosen't take medicare, os that's out. She gave me some other names of facilities that I am too lazy to call. I need to call. I will do that at 2pm. I can't handle much more in my brain than that.

I know the idea of inpatient treatment is scary. I remember. But I've been inpatient & it's worked for me. In alcohol treatment, I could leave at any time. When I'd ODd on drugs & signed myself in, I didn't try to leave--don't think they would have let me. Getting off drug dependency, having signed yourself in....I don't know. States vary.

But inpatient has a better chance of succeeding. & it's necessary if there's any chance you may go into seizures or have other medical complications.

Do you have a pdoc? mdoc? tdocs don't always know much about drugs. If you have a pdoc, please make contact.

I'm just afraid outpatient may not be enough if you have serious withdrawal. Will your husband freak? Turn you in? How will your children handle it?

C.G.

BlueCarGal

Right before I posted, CBlue posted, about most of the things you asked.
Please go back and read that. I think it will answer most of your questions.

Cblue,

You just continue coming in and talking to us when you need to. I am not sure, but I'm going to look and see if we have a room that might be of use besides this one. Hopefully when your here one of us will be around.

If you would like to chat and I'm here, I would be more than willing to try and get in chat to talk.

donna