I made a mistake...my husband threw out the rest of his pills once I told him about my problem....he said he will never get them again. He dosen't know anything about addicition or anything...he never thought I would ever take them.
I went to my psychologist today...I told her all...she gave me some names of some out patient facilities. I left a message at 1 today.
Right now I am scared of the thought of inpatient.

Thank you waves!

CBLUE

It may seem like a mistake right now. But honestly you made no mistake.
It is your husband that made the mistake.

He brought the medicine into the house, left it were you could just pick
it up and take it. Now he has tried to help, by just getting rid of it.

But it will be okay, you have made the first step, by going to the pdoc,
and you have also made the 2nd step by calling the therapy place.

Now keep up with this. If you don't hear tomorrow, call them back.

I admire how you are handling this. And I believe you will make it through
this just fine.

Also if you have problems, call your pdoc back, they should be able to get
ahold of someone immediately for you.

Donna

NO, no...I didn't mean it was a mistake for my husband to throw them out...I meant I said something wrong in one of my other replies. I am glad he threw them out. I am a mental case though...the prob I am having right now is a mental addiciton to them I think...I don't know. When my husband got them meds he had no idea what it was or that I had a problem at all. Yes, one would say he must be so stupiid not to know what it is....well..I couldn't argue with that.

I spoke to a woman from the outpatient rehap house and she dosen't take medicare, os that's out. She gave me some other names of facilities that I am too lazy to call. I need to call. I will do that at 2pm. I can't handle much more in my brain than that.

I haven't even called my psychiatrist and told him yet...psychologist, yes, I told her. I am nervous that he will want me to come in..that is $125.00 because he dosen't take ins of any kind. I like him tho, i can afford him every 6 weeks. It takes forever to find a pdoc that you are comfortable with so I don't want to change...I thhink I have an appt next week anyway.

Thank you everyone! I so appreciate your help! When I am feeling like I can't take it I come here to get a boost. Thank you!

CBLUE

Okay lets think this out.

1. Call your Psychiatrist, before the other center.

2. If you call the center first, They may then get you right in.

A. Then you wouldn't need your psychiatrist yet.

3. Will it bother your psychiatrist that you left him out of the loop
so long.

A. He is going to understand that you need a place, that will
take your insurance? Right, I would think he will.



You have a appt. Next week, so just let him move it up a few days.
Doesn't cost anymore, it just makes it due about say the most
7 days sooner.



Please call other center, And / or first your Psychiatrist.

I personally vote for your Psychiatrist, let him help you make a decision.

Its his job if you ask me. And you said, you like, and I'm guessing trust
him. You can always take what you first wrote here to him, and give
it to him, if nothing else.

Then let him call you.


Donna

yes I think you ought to call your pdoc too. and keep him in the loop.
He is your doctor...even if you can't get in to see him call the office and let them know that you are having a major event right now and need to be seen sooner. they will most likely try very hard to get you in sooner.
bizi

CBlue, even if he doesn't get you in sooner, your psychiatrists may give you information over the phone to help you, and/or get you hooked up with a center fast, and/or prescribe something for the moment, to avoid your ending up with acute withdrawal symptoms, at home, with no resources.

DO, PLEASE, CALL him right away... PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAASE...

it's not like calling is going to hurt you in any way. so pleaaaaaase.... do it...

i beseech you!

please please please please? on my knees....

waves worrying

Cblue,

I think Donna, Waves, etc. have analyzed this well. I, too, would suggest that you ask your pdoc to move up your appt due to an emergency situation. Pdoc can help with finding a situatuion that will accomodate insurance requirements.

I know this is scary & exhausting. I'm so glad you're staying pretty much on track. Don't let yourself get scared out of it. I promise you that you will either die down the road from drugs or you will have to travel down this same road again if you wiggle out of it now. No way can you avoid the trip.


C.G.

Sometimes my brain and body scream for help inside. Sometimes I am ok. My back hurts so much, I don't care about that..or rather, I don't want to care about that. Sometimes I wish I didn't throw them away and sometimes ... I don't know.

I know the idea of inpatient treatment is scary. I remember. But I've been inpatient & it's worked for me. In alcohol treatment, I could leave at any time. When I'd ODd on drugs & signed myself in, I didn't try to leave--don't think they would have let me. Getting off drug dependency, having signed yourself in....I don't know. States vary.

But inpatient has a better chance of succeeding. & it's necessary if there's any chance you may go into seizures or have other medical complications.

Do you have a pdoc? mdoc? tdocs don't always know much about drugs. If you have a pdoc, please make contact.

I'm just afraid outpatient may not be enough if you have serious withdrawal. Will your husband freak? Turn you in? How will your children handle it?

C.G.