that is funny about kayaking to Japan. I will have to try it. I wonder if there are a lot of places for a sense of humor.
i am afraid of that guy who said that to me. he can be very caustic at a drop of a hat. he was an abused child and still has so many issues even though he is about 82. he doesn't seem like 82. he can be oh so charming tool. I give him the milk from the cold pack every day. he is appreciative. but i am definitely afraid of him.
Bobby

that is the way i hope to go to. I have high cholestrol and can't take any drugs for it. that might be my way. boy does that sound morbid.
i do have a responsibility to take care of myself. I felt better when i was losing weight. Now that i have gained a little weight back and still have a strong appetite I don't feel good about taking responsibility for me. I just ordered a book by a rabbi on the meaning of life. I guess I am always trying.
He seems to stress that moving closer to God is part of the meaning. then the other part is correcting what you came down to earth to correct. Jews really believe in reincarnation. I didn't know that for years. I wonder how bipolar factors into it all. I sometimes think when I am more positive that God gave me bipolar as a gift to draw me closer to Him. Then i berate myself for not doing what other people do at my age or when i was younger. I tried very hard the first half of my life....put myself through graduate school etc...lately I don't seem to be trying. I am without direction except for my reading and wanting to give my kitty cats a pleasant environment.
oh well
I should own up more to being responsible for myself.
bobby

Do you have to be around him?
I try to distance myself from caustic people.
Not good especially if you are afraid of him.
I would not give him your milk, I would drink it, milk is good for us.
Remember only you can take care of you.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

i chose to sit at the table and he is there. I am used to the table. I have sometimes sat at another table but feel less comfortable.
I guess i will continue to give him the milk. I do buy milk for my oatmeal.
I tried the google map to Japan and laughed and then tried it to fiji, hawaii and italy but it said it couldn't give me directions.
part of me wants to go back on that high protein diet which i think caused the constipation problems but really helped me lose weight. I don't know what to do. until recently i have been on a low carbohydrate diet and low on calories but hadn't been able to lose weight.
bobby

If you are still using the myralax it will help you on any diet that you do try.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Bobby,

Can you add greens, mushrooms, asparagus, sprouts, green beans, broccoli, brussel sprouts, bell peppers? Also flax seed, nuts, . . ? Do eating those things fit in with your low carbdiet?

M

Yes most of those veggies fit in moderation of course, nuts is tricky because they are so calorie dense. Being on a low carb diet, we must still take into consideration the number of calories that we are eating.
At least that is my thinking...
bizi

those fit in with my diet but lately they don't appeal to me. i had to throw out two bunches of broccoli and i have some asparagus in the refrigerator that i better use. I am afraid of mushrooms because they are nightshade vegetables and years ago i had some arthritis. nuts have too many calories and i have flaxseed but haven't been having it lately. my appetite is outrageous lately. i wonder if the carbohydrates in the oatmeal is stimulating my appetite.
bobby

i am still using miralax generic.
bobby

yesterday i saw my psychiatrist and got a lot of prescriptions. he wouldn't give me three months prescription for klonopin and where i plan to send it says three months. he said in new york he isn't allowed to do it. oh well....more problems.
a former friend came over last night with a dog she is sitting for. i used to be very friendly with her and we used to speak practically every day. i miss her.
i don't know if we can get friendly again. she left her hat here so i emailed her and told her the visit was really nice and that i miss her.
this morning i woke up so depressed. i don't feel like going to the senior center tomorrow. i will try to push myself. i wish the pills would work. i started the day on a bad note. i ordered corn beef 1/2 pound along with other food and i sat down and ate it. no will power.
bobby