hi waves
ralph will be gone for three months...i was thinking of skipping the lunch place today but i better go. woke up depressed again. had active dreams where i was doing a lot of fun things and then woke up to nothingness. also eating a lot more and it is dangerous about my weight. ordered a lot of spinach. eggs and spinach are really good aren't they?
all errands when you are depressed seem so stressful. sorry you have to go through them. i decided not to call the eye doctor yet. oh well
love
bobby

eggs and spinach are heathy. so don't worry about them
hugs to you today(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Dear Bobby

yes. everything is hard when we are depressed. i am feeling better than before, but i have no energy... even less then before. there may be something physical going on and the inderal did not help anything, if anything i feel worse - pdoc said to suspend it. i need to go to the pulmonologist that i have put off for over a year.

yes spinach and eggs are a yummy combo. i like them with onions or garlic mixed in too. usually that is already in the left over spinach.. otherwise it is more complicated to fix -OR- a little garlic powder will do the trick. ;)

dreams can be such a pain. i have had such painful ones i have woken up breathing in sobs, and it takes ages to recover because it gets into my body, and then like you say, in the opposite case, if you have really good dreams, you wake up and whooosh, reality pulls the magic carpet out from under you.... sigh... :o

love

waves

i am sorry about your dreams...i sometimes have bad ones too and then get mad that i remember them and am afraid of sleeping the next night.
i had my spinach and eggs yesterday and should have tried with onions...soon i will do that.
i am sorry you have no energy. I really have no energy either and think it is the result of no exercise and depression. a few years ago i went to a heart doctor and a pulmonary doctor to see if something was physically wrong but they found nothing. One said if i lost weight that would help and he said it was also anxiety....
today i woke up depressed again. back to the old cycle. the ingrained cycle.
started worrying about my apartment again..wondered in they would get rid of rent stabilization in my life time. i have to always find things to worry about.
I had my class on the phone yesterday which put me in a good mood. I should be thankful for that. it seems whenever i get into a good mood i get hammered with a bad one soon after.
love
bobby

yes adding onions and garlic makes for a tasty omelet. YOu can use any cheese that helps too, cheddar, feta, pepperjack....etc
I am sorry for the return of the worry for you, glad that your class helped. Can you take other classes?
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

i am going to take another class which lasts for about four weeks and try to sign up for another one. it is the same lecturer and he is so well read and patient and kind.
bobby

woke up this morning feeling really depressed -what is new. somebody at the senior luncheon place died. she was a nice lady. she was moved to a nursing home and a couple of days later had a heart attack and died. she was very active and used to go to museums and lectures and concerts. I don't know why the rapid decline. then my friend called me and said her daughter in law who is 39 miscarried...just a couple of weeks ago Kathy found out she was pregnant by reading the teeshirt on her two year grandchild saying she was going to become a big sister.
then robert came over yesterday to try out the maps on google and see if my machine would get further than his. his health isn't good now although he can still walk his dog a mile. his heart is getting worse. I don't know what i would do without robert. abby was so friendly with him yesterday. she purred so loudly and was sitting on his lap when he was using the computer.
today i will try to force myself to go to the senior center for lunch. yesterday something unpleasant happened there. one of my table mates said he no longer felt sorry for me. they were giving out cookies and stuff and i took some and ate them. i have been feeling so deprived. I asked him why had he felt sorry for me. He said that he knew i was trying so hard to lose weight and now i displayed a lack of control. just what i needed even though it was true. i guess i should thank him.
the maps function on google is something else. I tried to find my old house but it was obscured by trees but i easily could see my apartment building. robert was actually in the picture when you looked up his address. he said they must have some truck taking all the pictures. you can also get directions there.
I have been lying down at five and watching cnn and continue and then fall asleep early and then wake up early. i have no motivation. I have little responsibility except for my kitty cats.\
bobby
bobby

Hi bobby
 

Sorry you woke depressed. I hope as you go through this day, that it will lift, so you will feel better. I am thinking about you. ginnie:hug:

Dear Bobby,
Those life events of people you know seem to have come in a pile.

The guy who wants to be the cookie police probably means well I suppose. For all he knows, all you ate for the whole day was lunch and the cookies. You and I know that cookies can fit into a good food plan.
Anyway, tell him he can help you by being supportive rather than feeling pity.


Google maps is cool. Type your address and then ask for directions to Japan.
When I am in Washington next it says:
Kayak across the Pacific Ocean entering Hawaii.

several steps later it says:

Kayak across the Pacific Ocean entering Japan.

For some reason this makes me laugh.

Mari

I disagree bobby,
you have the responsibility to take care of you!
no one else can do that. That is a huge shoe to fill.
I am sorry that the guy at the center said that to you.
Each day is a new beginning, a chance to start over. A gift so to speak. I hope you can go to the center and and be involved. you friend who declined rapidly...I hope that is how I go...not to have some drawn out disease. Sorry if that sounds morbid.
hugs to you today, glad that you have robert in your life.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi