Well I talked with my pdoc last week and my therapist last night.
(pdoc spoke with tdoc) They think that this may be depression that I am going thru. They both encouraged me to try the small dose of antidepressant. I am considering it. I think that I should not take the supplements, too unpredictable with my meds and the number of mood enhancing ingredients. My sleep has not been good keep waking up and then have a hard time going back to sleep if any at all. Can't get comfortable, arthritis setting in my shoulder, hips wonder if all of this is related to menopause?
Stress from work is better this week have had a good week, always better the first half of the month then it is slower the second half lately.
I wish I was busier...I don't do well with timeon my hands with nothing planned. I wish I was more interested in life...I don't read, have been listening to talk radio and have been getting depressed over the economy and scared to death over the obama care health reform. I hope it gets deemed unconstitutional.
i need to get going I have to leave for wqrk in half an hour and am still sitting here in my jammies.
bizi

Dear Bizi

Sleep problems, disinterest in life (apathy) and/or disinterest in activities you might normally enjoy (anhedonia) can all be symptoms of depression. Ruminative thoughts and worry can also become stronger, more frequent, and tend towards negative scenarios.

Can you listen to some music instead of the talk radio? Perhaps different music than you normally listen to... if you feel you need a change of pace.

When you have time on your hands, can you try to to do something even if you don't feel interested? In particular, i would suggest creative activities (maybe do some watercolors?) and physical activity (gardening? walking in the neighborhood ... and taking in the sights... trees, landscape, others' gardens?) If you can't do these things... try to do *anything* at all. even i dunno, polish an old silver jug or something. usually doing anything is better than doing nothing, even if it is a very small thing. it provides a positive focus.

When i am depressed, i find it soothing to fold (or refold) clothes, slowly, allowing myself to be really perfectionistic about it. I am not suggesting this will work for everyone, or you in particular.... just sharing.

i am glad you are considering giving the antidepressant a try.

i am really glad you are leaning against the herbal supplements.

love

~ waves ~ hoping you feel better soon

Thanks waves, It is all an effort.
I should shower tonight but don't want to make the effort.
sigh
bizi

Dear Bizi

Yes, depression is like that. Even the tiniest things are an effort. I understand 10000%. I am sorry you are experiencing this. It gets old real fast, too.

I hope that you try the meds and that they are helpful. If nothing else, know that by the cyclic nature of our illness, this shall pass.

love

~ waves ~

Dear Bizi
I am so sorry you have been feeling so depressed. You have been through so much this past while and you are still going through it. I use escape novels to help me but i don't think the passivity is good. i hope you try antidepressants and they work for you. if one doesn't work, try another.
love
bobby

I think the tetracycline can be a culprit. It depletes B's significantly over time, and B6 is needed for serotonin synthesis.
B2 is needed to activate the B6 into pyridoxal.

do not use more than 50mg of B6 daily though. That should be enough.

I stopped taking the tetracycline this past week. I think 5 months is long enough! I was not good at taking it twice a day though as I still has some left and it was only a 4month supply....I have a b complex that I will start taking today, it had 50mg of b6 along with other b vits.
I am going to make myself be productive today.
cleaned out the humming bird feeder, started a load of laundry, have 4 to do and then iron my scrubs for 2 weeks, clean out the pet fountain. I made some coffee so that tastes good. Jeff was a hero yesterday. He rented a steam cleaner and cleaner the traffic areas of the carpet in 3 bed rooms (we need new carpet but can't afford any major purchases) and the dining room, The carpets had been stained from cat throw ups and spot cleaned that left stains. so they look so good, I thanked him profusely. We have company coming for festival international at the end of the month, jeffs best friend who does not care about the house but they looked so bad, I was embarrassed to have company over..
let me get going with my chores, have a hair cut appointment at 1.
bizi

Hi, great info. Hope you get better, bizi. Just wanted to throw in some supplements that have helped me with my adrenal fatigue.

Liquid chlorophyll and sublingual B complex (which is full of B12) have helped a lot.

I've also started walking without fail at leas t a mile a day. At first it made me more tired but pretty soon it was giveing me more energy and a greater sense of wel-being

These things have made a huge difference in having extra energy. At least three other people I know swear by B12 and they don't even have thyroid problems.

I had another what I call sinking spell after dinner...had to lay down for a couple of hours then got up fine till bed time.I don't know maybe I just am needing a nap every now and then from menopause? just starting this....sigh
bizi

Bizi,

Naps are ok. They are fine as long as they do not interfere with your night sleep.

You are O.K.

M