Bobby

No real thoughts other than hugs.

I would also talk to Dr. M. About the social worker, and the location.

If he requires it, then he should be able to help figure out a solution
to the problem of the location or you getting there safely.

Donna

Dear Bobby,

Waves makes sense when she mentions calling the dentist if you have one because that is one certain thing that you have control over.

The rest of the stuff you mention is out of your control and perhaps why it is most unsettling. I too would be disturbed about the weirdness of the social worker's message. Try to trust Dr. M. He will tell you something that makes sense and that is workable I hope.


I am sorry that you are bruised from the fall. I hope that you are not achey.

Mari

first i am sorry i haven't written sooner. I have been sleeping so badly, obsessing about the change in location of the therapy and then i haven't had any energy in a long time and the heat is making it worse. I can't make myself go to the dentist yet. I will go when the pain is too much. I need dentures and it is still too hard to handle. I hope you find a very good dentist. I go to NYU dental clinic where they train students. It is a lot cheaper than regular dentists and the students tend to be enthusiastic and kind and are closely supervised.
I was in bed when the fireworks went off with the tv on. the macy's fireworks are way over on the west side so couldnt see them anyways. there were probably some in the park which i could have seen. I staid in all day.
I am so sorry you are suffering so much from the frequent migraines. I wish they would go away.
love
bobby

thanks Mari
Maybe i am worried too much about the change in location and maybe it is gentrified. It appears to be right near ccny campus too but a park is separating it. It will be embarassing to ask dr. m. if his other office is safe.
the map says there is a six minute walk to the office from the bus stop which might mean 10 minutes for me. i hope i can make it. I have been researching medicare social workers in my area. I don't know ifhe would go for that. I am really obsessing. My bruise is really bad and that fall really scared me. I have been drinking a lot. I am now running the ac all the time. tomorrow is supposedly to be the worse.
thank you
bobby

I have high blood pressure for which i take medication. My neighbor said I was lucky to break the fall with my arm because i could have hit my head or broken my shoulder. It must have been scarey when things went black. It almost happened to me and then i blinked and came out of it.
love
bobby

thanks so much for the hugs. I don't know what dr.m will say. it was his decision to move the location because both locations are his offices. I don't want to insult him about the safety about his office. also now that i am older I can't see myself standing on a bus for a long time. I don't know if I can get a seat. so many negative thoughts.
bobby

thanks for the message Mari
right now all i can think of is that dr m. found somebody to rent out the space for the current location on that day and has the other location empty. I am less achey but especially exhausted. I got two hours sleep last night.
bobby

I am sorry this is such a difficult time for you right now.
I wish it were easier for you.
I hope your arm heals quickly....yes very grateful that you did not break your shoulder.
hugs to you today.
If your tooth is infected don't wait too long then the pain meds don't work from what I hear.
(((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Dear Bobby,

First, even if your bp is high, a sudden drop can cause those symptoms - it doesn't have to be a drop into hypotensive state, just a relative drop.

Second, your medication probably keeps your bp fairly normal.

And lastly, with the heat, and the A/C not working, you may even be experiencing low blood pressure, or dips into actual hypotension. That happened to my dad and they had to lower his medication. I'd encourage you to see your doctor about this, since you are taking meds, to see if an adjustment is in order given the environmental conditions.

Meanwhile, just do please be careful when getting up ... do it slowly, sit up slowly, stay sitting, then stand. that sort of thing. yes that's the problem with falling you don't know what you're going to hit or break or... the best thing is to try to prevent falling, which you can do.

After getting up slowly, walk near walls or furniture that you can lean on or grasp if you suddenly feel dizzy or faint. And don't hesitate to grab on and plunk yourself downon the floor wherever if that happens. Better you plunk yourself than get plunked, you know?

i do hope your arm feels better soon. thank goodness you didn't sustain other injuries. hope you can get more sleep tonight or today sleep heals.

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Dr. M. ... i wouldn't be concerned about "offending" him. Just be straight up and tell him your fears. If you wish, you can start by telling him your fear of offending him. Then continue with the others. This way he can address everything with you. He has known you for years. I think it will be fine. He is a compassionate person.

love

~ waves ~

that sounds scarey. how can it hurt when it is pulled? they all have to be pulled and that is why i am postponing it for as long as possible?