i thought i would start a new thread since the old one sad cont got too long.
i also thought i would mention my continual lack of energy. I was wondering if it could be the result of my constant feeling anxious. klonopin doesn't seem to touch it. a few days ago i definitely decided i wanted to live. it might have something to do with Mark's death. I am not sure. Herb is back. the guy at the senior center who left to start work which he said turned out to be a scam.
He said he wakes up every morning and thanks
God for being alive. He is the one who had cancer removed from both lungs and had four heart surgeries. His wife died of cancer two years ago. He mourned for a year. He is 79..I think he is a positive influence on me. I am still exhausted.
bobby
I am still walking in the morning five days a week

Bobby

These are all positive things. Other than of course the lack of energy.

For me the lack of energy is helped when I make sure I take my iron.
I think you are doing a good job walking in the morning. Please continue
going and meeting up with your friends at the center. I think this
is part of your day.

I also love the fact you want to live. I hope that makes sense.

Donna

Bobby,

I am sorry about Mark.
Herb is good to be around it seems.
I applaud your walking!

M

thank you donna
i am still very depressed but i do want to live. the depression is also contributing to my lack of energy. the lack of energy is contributing to my depression. yesterday i didn't almost have a seat at the table but velda, the organizer there, saved a seat for me when only one was left. that made me feel good.
thank you again
bobby

thank you mari
herb again is talking about finding a job. oh well. i am all ready for the walk today. it is already in the eighties. eeks. i am glad i am doing it. i wish this depression would go away.
bobby

I am glad that you want to live bobby, this is a huge feeling. Proud of you for walking.
good job!
bizi

Bobby dear

that is marvellous that you want to live
and i'm so proud of you for the walking 5... five ... omg FIVE days a week!!!
that was sweet of Velda to save you a seat that day. How affirming... hope it reinforced your sense of belonging to the group there.

my pdoc says anxiety and fatigue often go together i have experienced them. the anxiolytic i always take i am used to and doesnt touch extra anxiety. if i take extra then it is sedating so it increases the fatigue devil and deep blue sea.

belly breathing is good for relaxation.

you can also just do awareness exercises that consist of focusing on your breathing. you don't have to breathe any special way, only pay attention to your breathing. feel the breath flow in and out in and out. when you get distracted observe the distraction and come back to observing the breath.

love you lots. sorry i am not posting much i try to get here every so often.

i am trying to wrap myself back around life and am just so tired of finding myself sort of dangling from a loose branch over and over...

love

waves who is now going to bed (7 am)

I was on kolnapan for years and it did nothing for my energy leavle eather have you tryed vitaman b6 and b12 they are good for energy or you could get a bottle of rosemary essential oil just take the top off and take a big snif that will wake u right up

Hi, Bobby,

I hope that today is going o.k. for you.

Mari

I take b12 because i have pernious anemia. I haven't tried b6 and didn't know about rosemary essential oil. thanks a lot. I don't sleep that well. I also have been wound up because of the elections. I haven't gone to the senior center in the past couple of days and don't feel like going today. I have been going for the morning walks with my neighbor and her dogs though. I don't feel depressed but I think underneath it i am depressed. it is hard to explain.
thanks again
bobby