thank you for your support you guys! I woke up clear headed and feeling ready to start the day...running a bit late so better cut this short, just wanted to say thank you.
bizi

September is a time of change... mother nature reminds me of this every year... little hints like a leaf on the sidewalk...

That leaf forces me to look up... just to marvel in the changes, perhaps... but more to remind me ... change is part of the cycle of life.

Bizi... bravo! you're making super healthy choices. Be gentle on yourself... and don't forget to take baby steps .

I got your pm - thanks Addy

Maybe this sounds crazy but.....
I think the drinking gave me something to do.
I talked myself into drinking more and more to see how much I could drink and not get drunk. Eventually I would have too many....or I would drink them too quickly like the margaritas.
thank you for your support.
bizi

Dear Bizi,

I understand what you are saying.

M

I need to find some hobbies...jeff and I need to find something to do together that doesn't include drinking. my new friend said she was sad to lose her drinking buddy....so I won't be going to the wine and cheese tasting like I have been with her tonight. We are going to listen to some zydeco music at the downtown live concert, I can get by with out drinking,
(I have associated drinking with listening to music at concerts bars etc.)
there will be a "via la waffle" food truck there sandwiches made with waffles, very good but not really diet food though., want to go to the gym sometime tomorrow. The weather is cooler in the evenings and jeff and I have been taking walks around the neighborhood. I am a very oral person so need to switch to drinking tea or something else during movies that we watch at home. I think I told you that I am trying to diet and not drink calories...I don't want to use artificial sweeteners and don't like the taste of stevia. If I remember right red zinger tea is very good by itself, must get some.

bizi

Believe me I want to guzzel some spirits too at times, no question about it. Or do an illegial activity in my state. My desire to feel better is so strong, that I think it stops me from induldging. I am no innocent, in fact a long way from it. I guess my fear of feeling worse, keeps me on the straight path. I do mediate, read, Yoga, and what ever else I can do to distract. All of us have our individual demons to address. You are one special lady who I admire alot. You can do anything you put your mind to. Bad foot and all I am on my way outdoors to see what I can do in the garden. Rather have a beer. ginnie

(((((Bizi)))) ...

You're having a lot of a-ha moments ... you've been here before and you're working hard at making this time different.

Be gentle on yourself.

I didn't see Ginnie's post as I was writing my own...

Right on Ginnie!

Hey Bizi Soon after I stopped drinking alcoholic beverages,I started drinking Qui-bell sparkling water,and Perrier sparkling water. After a while,I stopped drinking them. Maybe some sparkling water can help while looking at movies. BF

Dear Steve,


I used to drink more sparkling water than I do now. For years, Perrier was my favorite when I could afford it.

Now sometime I buy sparkling water for a treat.

M