I have been running hypomanic for a while now.
Have been eating and drinking at free will these days.
I bought a car last week on impulse and did not discuss it with jeff, talked them into taking it back the next day, what a relief that was. I put on a bunch of wieght and stopped going to the gym.
My drinking has gotten out of control, been binging (5 0r more drinks in a sitting) 2-3 times a week. not good. Saturday I was so out of control at the art walk that I hardly looked at art instead went for the free wine and food.
last night 5 margaritas, now tonight I have had 6 beers and it doesn't feel like I have had any to speak of. so my tolerance is high.
I broke down and told my pdoc how much I was drinking and she had a fit.
I cried.
Right away she wants me to go to a substance abuse counselor and be evaluated. and join an AA group get a sponsor. I told her I did not think that I was an alcoholic that I just had a problem with it. She said look up the definition. She wants to see me with jeff next time so we can get him on the same page. He doesn't think I have a problem. I know I have a problem.
sigh
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