Had a very hard time tonight.....
long day at work, tired hungry,
drove home and stopped right at the entrance to our little bar. stopped in the middle of the street debating about going in for a dinner and a few drinks. Could not decide, so I sat there for awhile until I saw someone coming up behind me and then turned down my street to go home. Ate left over ribs from last night, a left over cup cake and a nectarine. Am full now, Jeff is not due home for another hour or so. He is playing for a rehearsal dinner. You see My mind was working on the fact that I could secretly go drink and get home before jeff got home....Integrity is doing the right thing when no one is looking. Being honest with myself, I wanted to have some fun....but realized that going there I would be letting down myself so came home.
I will see how long this fast takes me.....I can't see a dry mardi gras or new years or cruise in feb. I know that there will be drinking for celebrations. But that is months away. january 1st is my birthday, I am going to see if I can make it until then.
I was very close to giving in tonight, glad that I did not.
bizi