[Ms manic]

Worked Monday. Said some colossally stupid things - one on the radio so 25 men got to hear - then finished up the day with a really good catch. I'm going to try not to stress about this. If my brain works, good, if not I'll just keep doing my job and try not to beat myself up. I am grateful for the moment I was able to function. No consistency is tough though. It would help a lot if I would take a moment to gather myself before I speak but you know how pressured our speech can be. I hope and pray for stability and some very much needed self confidence at work. All male work force doesn't help. The ego is not a myth.

[Ms manic]

PS the drop to 400 mg hasn't helped yet but it's only been a week. Patience isn't my strong suit.

[Mari]

Hi,

Give the 400 a longer try. Have you noticed anything missing at 400? Do you feel more depressed?

Maybe after three or four weeks total, you can try going below 400.

Yes, I understand the difficulty talking when I am feeling like I want to get all the words out at the same time --- is that what you are talking about?


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[bizi]

maybe you can write yourself a little note that is by the radio, "think first" to remind yourself to slow down. I am sorry that you are having these problems, have you been to a neuropsychologist?maybe there is something else going on?
bizi

[Ms manic]

Just found out that I'm lead hand all next week - something I try to avoid. I'm going to come up with a reminder to help me think first. A drawing of a noose to remind me to quit committing professional suicide? A photo of Einstein in coveralls? A Chocolate bar that I only get to have if I don't say anything stupid? I've got it. My bank card to remind me of how broke I'm going to be if I don't last until retirement.

[Mari]

Hi,

The only thing that keeps me quiet is extra Klonopin. It makes me relaxed enough to keep my mouth shut. If I were in charge of the talking, I do not know what I would do.
Good luck.
Stick to the script. Stay very much on topic. Talk slowly.
Enjoy yourself too. Talking is waaaaaay better than having to listen to someone else.

M

[Ms manic]

thanks Mari and Bizi, you are awesome

[Goshawk]

Klonopin helps me calm down, and I feel less of the pressured speech that is such a treasure in my life. With my psychiatrist's help I have been slowly weening myself of this benzo, hopefully for good. Klonopin is fine but I watched my wife go cold turkey of Paxil for 9 days, and on the 9th day was crying and screaming at my son and daughter, only my daughter was away at a sleepover. I can't seem to get past 2 Klonopin a day which is still awesome, and I am allowed to take Klonopin PRN if need be. Just work with your psychiatrist on whatever you.