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03-06-2013, 09:33 PM | #101 | |||
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HI there waves, hoping that your mood does not tank.....
hope that you are sleeping well. I am trying to get caught up in the threads....lots happened in 2 days.... bizi
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. Hattie the black and white one wrestling with hazel, calico. lost hattie to cancer..... Happiness is a decision.... 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night I will not give up in this weight loss journey, nor this need to be AF. 3-19-13=156, 6-7-13=139, 8-19-13=149, 11-12-13=140, 6-28-14=157, 7-24-14=149, 9-24-14=144, 1-12-15=164, 2-28-15=149, 4-21-15=143, 6-26-15=138.5, 7-22-15=146, 8-24-15=151, 9-15-15=145, 11-1-15=137, 11-29-15=143, 1-4-16=152, 1-26-16=144, 2-24-16=150, 8-15-16=163, 1-4-17=169, 9-20-17=174, 11-17-17=185.6, 3-22-18=167.9, 8-31-18= 176.3, 3-6-19=190.8 5-30-20=176, 1-4-21=202, 10-4-21= 200.8,12-10-21=186, 3-26-22=180.3, 7-30-22=188, 10-15-22=180.9, |
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03-07-2013, 12:16 AM | #102 | |||
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I hope the mood goes where it is suppose to be. Your mother is being helpful I suppose. I do not have anybody to do this for me --- point out changes in a helpful way. 'Sister used to do that. Right now she only notices that I interrupt her --- she says I do that but mostly we are not communicating well. She has in the past seemed to be sensitive to my hypo-ish moods but she is wrong lately because I feel low. The doc . . . . I don't know. Let it not bother you as you say. Mari |
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03-07-2013, 12:26 AM | #103 | |||
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i just couldn't sleep and feel dreadfully antsy and dreadfully down at the same time. not a good combination.
i have left over Zyprexa that expires this month. i think i am going to take it for about a week and see if it helps settle me down some. i am going to plan to go low carb at the same time, in the hope of contrasting any possible weight, because i'm already maxed out... the weight i'd lost i gained back... so i don't have any "room" for gain ... if i do it will mean new clothes AGAIN! but i have a sense that Zyprexa is the only drug that is going to fix this, and I'd just soon nipt it now than have to wage war against an agitated depression in a month or so. And it will put me to sleep when i take it. i have noticed recently a tendency for assonance and alliteration in my speech. good new is perhaps i could try writing poetry - except i don't have the privacy, DUH. *thud* but i've seen that happen before it is a sign my brain is working differently... can escalate to random words and/or syllables zipping around my head. blender-brain, i call it. i had that in the beginning when i had all the other sx with rapid escalation, racing thoughts were one... then abated... me no want that back, nossirrreeebob, it suxxx! ~ waves ~ |
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03-07-2013, 12:32 AM | #104 | |||
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Brain and Bizi
Thank you both for for your support. Brain, I'm sorry i didn't answer earlier - when i posted to this thread earlier i guess i had not refreshed the page and completely missed your post! Then before bed i caught Bizi's post and then saw yours also, but was not up to posting right then. (Now I'm just "up" period. other than moodwise and eyelid-wise that is.) Crazy thing eh. My first pdoc told me though, that our eyes have separate melatonin cycles ... lol... so he said having tired eyes does not equate to feeling tired overall. I guess that's where i'm at because my eyes would really like to shut them and sleep but when i tried that, my body and mind completely rebelled. ~ waves ~ |
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03-07-2013, 12:46 AM | #105 | |||
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right now it's going every which way it seems.
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Mari, if she is catching energy from you - perhaps in the form of impatience, impulsivity, irritability etc... do you suppose you might be in a subsyndromal mixed state??? that's why i don't like my current trend... it really seems to have bits of both sides. I understand not feeling like one has a lot of energy physically. i don't have psychomotor agitation... well, um... only sometimes? Quote:
i have this gut feeling the Zyprexa will be helpful. the first time i took it iwas more depressed than manic, but it was like a black mania. very very dark mood. hardly spoke much was like a seething vulcano. i still remember how much better i felt... i am not that bad... maybe i won't need to use it for long. i think it will be a better help than upping my depakote right now, even if it isn't an "emergency." i really could give jack squat what my pdoc thinks ... besides when i have medication "hunches" like this he usually says to follow them. i'm far from enamoured with everything else Zyprexa does...hardly a drug one takes for fun! ~ waves ~ |
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03-07-2013, 01:02 AM | #106 | |||
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Dear waves, I think your judgement sounds good. I think following a low carb diet during this time is a good idea.
hugs to you tonight, I hope you get some sleep. Thanks for sharing. (((((HUGS))))) bizi
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. Hattie the black and white one wrestling with hazel, calico. lost hattie to cancer..... Happiness is a decision.... 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night I will not give up in this weight loss journey, nor this need to be AF. 3-19-13=156, 6-7-13=139, 8-19-13=149, 11-12-13=140, 6-28-14=157, 7-24-14=149, 9-24-14=144, 1-12-15=164, 2-28-15=149, 4-21-15=143, 6-26-15=138.5, 7-22-15=146, 8-24-15=151, 9-15-15=145, 11-1-15=137, 11-29-15=143, 1-4-16=152, 1-26-16=144, 2-24-16=150, 8-15-16=163, 1-4-17=169, 9-20-17=174, 11-17-17=185.6, 3-22-18=167.9, 8-31-18= 176.3, 3-6-19=190.8 5-30-20=176, 1-4-21=202, 10-4-21= 200.8,12-10-21=186, 3-26-22=180.3, 7-30-22=188, 10-15-22=180.9, |
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03-07-2013, 01:21 AM | #107 | |||
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Dear Bizi,
Thanks, I really appreciate the feedback. It's 7:20am here... not going to try to sleep again right now. I have to pick up some meds this morning, that I had to order from the pharmacy. I will probably just take naps prn today. Heehee i can just see that on a script: Sleep 8 hrs qd Naps prn |
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03-07-2013, 04:01 AM | #108 | ||||
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My sis knows me very well so in the past she has been a good check on when I am getting jumpy or loud or such. But recnently (months/ years?) she has been finding me irritating. I sense a lack of patience maybe with lots of things going on with her but maybe especially with me. . . . also maybe some un-interest . . . . She has in the last two or three weeks (re)started taking Wellbutrin. It has helped her in the past. I guess she asked her GP for some. (I feel like she could use some Valium and some DBT classes to deal with the stuff she spends time complaining about. . . . But then I might say that about a lot of people I run into.) We have a horrible connection when she uses her speaker phone. . . . . because I can't hear what she says and am not sure if she hears what I say. We end up repeating things . . . and even arguing about what we said. Also, she is often doing something at the same time or talking to the dogs or the hubby or preparing dinner -- at least that what was going on Wed night when I called to ask for guidance on three very specific (short) things. . . . not a good way for me to connect or even to get feed back on where I am mood-wise although I was not calling for that. I m very calm since the hypnosis on Monday at tdoc's when she did a session on calming and healing. But I am so "calm" (?) right now that the brain is slow. I think the brain will adjust in a few more days. I could very well be in a mixed state but the call with the sis is not confirming either way. Quote:
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03-07-2013, 05:27 AM | #109 | |||||
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i have informed my mother for meal planning purposes that i will be off carbohydrates. i started this morning - no sugar in my coffee. I put cinnamon in it thought. later will continue research to check if cinnamons' mechanism in lowering blood sugar would be better or worse for the body with Zyprexa, and whether it might reduce carb craving. too bleary brained right now naptime ~ waves ~ |
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03-07-2013, 10:27 AM | #110 | ||
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I truely hope that you find some middle ground soon and start sleeping and feeling better((hugs))
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