Hi Waves. Yes it's a day,to hour,to minute,by minute thing. I feel uninterested in hobbies,movies,and things that usually make me feel ok.

My sister has a progressive type of MS. Some people go into remission with MS,and don't have problems for awhile. It's not that way with my sister. She can only use one arm now. She doesn't have depression. She said that I got all of that from our family,and she got the MS gene from mother's side,or something like that. BF

Hi, Steve,

I guess it might help to realize that being uninterested is what your mind wants you to do right now. This is the time.
At some point, you will be in a different time -- when you can involve yourself in things that make you feel o.k.

Mari

Steve, I know you know how much you are loved here, but each one of us even though we are friends without faces, is a true friend.

I don't have any love or caring from my siblings and really couldn't care less from the deceit and fraud they committed. So some of the deepest unconditional love and support is from the friends here .......like you!

My De would have been 35 tomorrow, she was born on Mother's Day. A blessed gift from God, gone from me. I put on the strong front, everyone tells me it gets better with time, the hurt of loss. I don't have the deep chest aching pain, but the emptiness of loss, wanting to hold her, be with here.

One day I will see here again, I have to be strong for my family keep them filled with love and memories. Pets love us so unconditionally, they are great to have.
I am glad you have him to love you. They have attitude like kids can have but do appreciate that we take care of them.

Your Dad had such a long blessed life with his family. Unfortunately your friend had thought the answer to his pain was by his hands. We are fighters here, reaching out to family, friends and our health care providers.
Venting helps, crying helps, our meds help because we can do that. Then we pull our boot straps up.

I think you sound lonely, it's hard to keep up a pace with 3-d friends, but here we can check in ith a good morning, what's up today, share a smile, or hug.
I love that, need it. Having the computer and forum is better then the neighbors over the fence chats that are too polite or too nosey.

Hugs
Di

love you di.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Hi Di. So De would have been 35 on mother's day. I'm so sorry. BF

Yes Steve, so hard forme to picture her other then my child. Some days like Anniversarys of events it is uncomprehenable to me she is gone. I found myself hugging and giving a kiss to a picture of her taken at Coco Beach, then I realized I was just here last week. Walked the same sand.
Thinking of you my dear friend!
Di

I've been to Coco Beach also,but not recently. The people there where so friendly. This was back in the seventies. A high school friend had a brother that moved down there.

I'm sorry about De. BF

I am glad that you have pictures and good memories to cling to. anniversaries are hard.
thinking of you today.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi