Thanks guys
 

No results yet, it's just been a day. I am super worked up. I am very anxious about my retirement ceremony Fri at 1000. My sister and her husband scheduled their baby's baptism the day after the ceremony. On on hand, I am glad because that takes the spotlight off me. On the other hand, maybe I want a little spotlight? I know they have a brand new baby and that brings my mom such joy so she shall have it. Then since our family will all be together with grand kids too and my moms bday is around the corner, I decided to do a surprise bday for my mom after the guests leave the baptism brunch. So it is just a lot. I will get thru it.

I feel more balanced on the Latuda, still have rage spirts. I still have to remember that I can only do so many things a day. When my ears start ringing and the headaches start, it is time to wrap up activities for the day. If I not, mistakes start happening like leaving my wallet home, not locking my car etc...causing more problems.

Have a lovely day.

you have a lot going on this week, sounds like a lot of pressure.
try to take it a day at a time.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hi, PTSD,

That makes sense to stop the day when you get to the end of what you can handle. Maybe that is a bit like a milk jug getting filled up --- when it is full it is full and there is no reason to try to cram more milk into even though sometimes that is our tendency.

The retirement ceremony is all yours whether your sister has anything going on the day after or not.

(I just watched a retirement ceremony on youtube. It was beautiful.)

M

Wow that is a major line-up of activities!
But then, you are an active person! :)

Enjoy your retirement ceremony. Take things one step at a time.

You had a very kind thought about the birthday party.
Don't hesitate to draft other members of the family to help, LOL! :D

waves

Today is the day!
 

Ok got my hair cut in and an eyebrow waxing too! Put my uniform together, it is all squared away. Have the things ready that I am taking to the brunch for the Baptism prepared. Moms Bday cake is made, just have to frost it. Lasagna is defrosting for cooking tomorrow. So all I will have to do for that is roast garlic. Today after the ceremony...I am not making plans. Not sure if I will go for a run this am, maybe just some yoga.

I have my notes prepared and que sara sara sp?

Maybe I will get a pic.

Have a good day.

Good luck today.
thank you for your service!
bizi

Good luck, PTSD. :grouphug:
This is a day bittersweet as you look at the past and look toward the future.

We are with you.

(Wow, I noticed you were up early. I think I remember your mentioning your hours. Have a good day.)

Mari

The door is opening
 

Oh my my friends....talk about emotional exhaustion! The retirement was nice, to tell the truth, I am relieved. I never in a million years thought I would feel like this. I thought I would be so in the dumps and sad. The process of getting out took two years, which was good because it prepared me for civilian life. I am still eating the buttercream yellow cake w strawberry cream in between layers w fresh berries.....Lordy! I think that goes in the freezer today, like a wedding cake.

The Baptism was nice, I don't go to church, I am not anti and I do believe but despite being confirmed I don't like to take communion. I get nervous. The church has pew boxes instead of pews. A trip and I got our own pew box and stayed out of the fray. I was very jumpy and someone came popped her head in and I thought I was going to die, she left and I did breath work.

The brunch following the ceremony at my moms was really nice. We all helped get it prepared and it was lovely. We were all smoke checked! The guests left the baptism brunch by 3pm. That is when I went to my house got all the bday stuff and surprised my Mom to the end, a task! We had a red (sister made)and a white lasagna, salad, bread, roasted garlic and her all time fav three layer carrot cake, grandmas recipe! My other sister said she would help so I asked her to get the balloons but she couldn't do that, she really couldn't with the baptism, baby, she doesn't live here so she helped w the execution of the plan. It truly was a sister team effort for Momma!
I was choking my cake down and pushing the opening of gifts because I just wanted to go home. It was nice but I way over exended my energy level. I was beat!

Thanks for supporting me.

sounds emotionally draining.
REst now.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

What a great ceremony -- it honors your past and helps you move to your future. . . . A great transition. :) :) :)
Pew boxes are cool. We should have those for everyday life.
You got through all this with aplomb.

I think I will come down
 

I was supposed to rest yesterday yesterday and I couldn't. I made cookies, steamed the carpets, made photo albums, did all this stuff that wasn't required but it was a diversion from myself. At about 3 pm I took an Ativan and watched Duck Dynasty.....love that show. It was maybe going to storm--u fortunately. I think I need to brace myself for a tumultuous couple days, or at least be prepared.

My sister and her family are staying w my mom and dad. My mom provides (sometimes erroneous) top over for my sister and her husband. So I (like a jealous girlfriend/wife) get jealous and question everything to make sure I am not being left out. Man that takes me to the place I was when I was married to my abusive husband.

Anyway my sister and her husband are starting cross country today, I have an appt w my lawyer. I. Am getting my will, living will and power of attorney all updated. I don't have time time to negotiate the obstacles to try to say goodbye. I am ok w the efforts I have made to share time and it is enough.

I am feeling weird.

good luck in your journey, I hope it is a smooth transition for you.
bizi

TBI,

You had a busy day -- what with all the baking and carpet cleaning and photo albuming. Yikes. You had lots of energy or as you say lots to work off.
At least that was a productive way to spend that energy.

Family does things to us.
I dunno what.

I have not done the will thing and I don't trust my husband to handle the living will thing. Maybe I should do both so that he will have an easier time of things if I go first. (He gets anxiety and freaks about making decisions.)
When I was single, I did not care one way or another what happened to what I left behind (mostly debts and maybe some life insurance via work).

How is it that paper work does not stress you out?
I would rather avoid it if at all possible.
In fact, in the four years I lived here, I only walked across the street twice to get the mail. Hubby handles that. I tell him to put it in a pile so I can ignore it.

Are you saying you are energetic right now and that you expect it to pass?
Maybe it is because of the lead up to the excitement about the retirement ceremony and the family visitors and events.

Remind yourself that you are doing well. In other words, find ways to praise yourself.

M

Will
 

Mari,
I don't know what to expect day to day. Today I am super anxious because I have to go into D.C. To the Vet Hospital. I want to throw up just thinking about it. I have a ride, thank god. I meet my VA doc and I no longer have a primary care doc on base. Scary, change.

The will. Well the lawyer made me wait 45 min. Holy God, I can't handle waiting. When he finally called me I cried in his office. It was super easy. I filled it a form prior to and no husband, no kids, made it really easy. I was I. There for 20 min. They are going to draft it up and I will go in and sign it.

I bought a fire box a while ago for all of my important docs, banking, adoption, divorce decree etc...then I found an article on how to plan for your death so family doesn't have to figure it out. My accounts, debts, special money set aside for my nieces etc...I made files, put them in ziplock bags and loaded em up in the fire safe.

I think I am going to try not to put too much into my mood and just roll with it. I have been in mayhem w events, I am just going to let things simmer down and take care of myself the best I can.

I do anticipate depression, and anxious depression. Shoot, my ears are already ringing this morning.

hugs for you today.
((((HUGS))))
hope you feel better and more calm less anxious as you rest and take good care of yourself.
bizi

Hi

I hope that the DC trip went well. Changing drs is scary.
Roll with the mood. That makes sense to me. Let it go the way it needs to go.

Mari

Ways to find your posts
 

Hi TBI/PTSD,

I partly answered the post you left in my "Trying to get out and about" thread ... here is a link back to the thread, positioning you at my answer:

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/sh...34#post1012834

As to how to track your posts, I figured I'd answer here to help ensure you see the information. Perhaps one or more of these tips will help you:

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Option 1: Automatic Post Subscription:

(Drawback, your subscriptions will pile up. You stay subscribed permanently unless you go into your subscription options and manually unsubscribe. Turning off this setting does not unsubscribe you.)

You can change a single setting in your profile in order to be subscribed automatically to any thread you post to (including any new thread you start), and receive notification from the forum when subscribed threads are updated.

From any Neurotalk page:

1. Click "UserCP" (leftmost link on horizontal menu, near top of page)
2. Click "Edit Options" from the list on the left (entitled "Your Control Panel")
3. Scroll down to the "Messaging and Notification" section.
4. Go to the second option group, entitled "Default Thread Subscription Mode."
5. Click on the dropdown box to change its value, choosing the form of notification you prefer.
6. Finally, scroll all the way to the bottom of the page, and click the "Save" button. You must do this or your options will not be changed.

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Option 2: Forum Subscription:

As an alternative to subscribing to each thread, you could subscribe to the forum. Doing this you can get an email periodically which tells you of any threads in the forum which have been added or changed.

From the page of the specific forum (thread listing) to which you want to subscribe:

1. Find the header line, right above the sticky threads, that says "Threads in forum..."
2. On that line, towards the right, you'll see a link that says "Forum Tools" -- click on that.
3. From the dropdown menu, select "Subscribe To This Forum".
4. In the page that opens, pick the notification type you prefer from the dropdown box.
5. Finally, click on the "Add Subscription" to complete the process.

When you subscribe to any given forum, the notifications you get do not discriminate between the threads to which you've posted and those you've not, but you can tell that from the thread listing itself....

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Option 3: Thread icons and tooltips:

In the thread listing, to the left of each title, there is a little icon that changes depending on how many replies are in the thread, whether you have posted to it, etc. The thread icon shows an arrow if you have posted to it.

Threads you've posted to also give you a tooltip when you pass your mouse over their icon. The tooltip will tell you "You have [number of] posts in this thread, last on [date you last posted]. (When you haven't posted to a thread, no tooltip comes up.)

Thanks
 

I must go w option 3 I must keep it simple. Thanks so much. I thought I remembered something as easy at that but I forgot and I was just posting out there and I wanted follow the threads.

No problem and if you forget again, ask and we'll remind you. :) There is also a a little legend to the thread icons. It is located below the list of threads, but if your monitor is like mine, it is off the display region -- I have to scroll down to see it. :o

I was actually worried about swamping you with info, especially option 1 which seemed the most cumbersome but at that point I'd already typed it and figured I'd just leave it and let you decide. Our minds all work different ways. ;)

Hope you are having a good day today.

Vitamix
 

Hi,

I think about you when I try to make something in my slightly broken blender.
It was a good enough cuisinart until the "blend "function went out and I mostly do "chop" now.

Friday morning I chopped fresh strawberries and fresh spinach with flax seed, a touch of cinnamon, cocoa powder, and a mix of Coconut water and Almond milk (I vary the liquids based on what I have but usually keep the cinnamon and cocoa powder. Sometimes I add PB2 -- powdered peanut butter).

Do you have a favorite for your mornings or do you make variations?

M

I get a ringing in my ears also. It comes,and goes in my left ear. It goes from a soft pitch,to a noise,to a loud ringing. I've only had this for about four years. Sometimes it drives me up the wall. I'm trying something called Lipo-Flavonoid from Walmart. I think that it helps somewhat. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Ringing in ears (tinnitus)
 

BF,
Good morning,
Thanks. I use my tinnitus as a measure for how I am doing at the time they start ringing. Usually it is an indicator that I need to slow my roll and chill a bit. It is a pain but I am grateful for the signal. I have been doing too much and under a load of stress so naturally the ringing is worse and migraines are up too. I feel spread so thin. I am taking a yoga instructor course which is amazing and sending me on a spiritual journey. I have to remember poses and tell a student what to do, when to inhale, exhale and do it myself. It is really hard for me post TBI/PTSD and diagnosis. I am reminded that I am 100% disabled but am quickly reminded. I am not sad, just adapting.

Mixin it up
 

Do you have a favorite for your mornings or do you make variations?

M[/QUOTE]

Good morning Mari! My foundation is usually the same. I always put coconut water, 1-2 TBS flax seed, chia seeds, soy protein powder. I generally throw in a fresh banana, apple, peach, maybe some frozen fruit. I always throw in a ton of kale or spinach and maybe a carrot. Sometimes I throw in Kefir, ginger or depending on the other ingredients, lime.. I loathe wasting food so part of the reason I bought the vitamix is so I can use all the food I buy and do far it is providing nutritious food and I am wasting less. As I notice things starting to wilt...they go in the vitamix section. I have even done tomatoes...hehhehehehe!

This is very thrifty! sound really good and good for you!
does it take out the pulp?
I would need the fiber.
bizi

Bizi
 

It pulverized the heck out of everything. I drink them w a Starbucks straw.

A straw is good. That probably makes things easier when I am in a hurry in the a.m.
I have not been to Starbucks so I do not know what straws they have but I have seen the big fat straws on Amazon that come with Boba Teas (Bubble Tea) in some Asian restaurants.

I read it is goood to "chew" the smoothies a little because the digestion process starts in the mouth . . .. . good for digestion and all that.
. . .. I am rushing through my typing because I am preparing for a call and need to be ready.

Your presence on the board helps me to think about being healthy and practical. Thank you.

Mari

Dosage
 

Good morning!
My doc increased my dosage to 80 MGS and an Ativan if I can't sleep. I think the Latuda makes me feel better and want to do more and as I do, it is too much. Being in yoga school or anywhere for 8 hours a day is too much for me. I will find a work around.

Have a great day today.

glad that the doc will be allowing you take the ativan to sleep. I take klonipin to sleep just 1mg does the trick.
WE NEED TO SLEEP!
bizi

Biz I
 

Thanks for saying that. I always get a little Leary about taking it being in recovery. It is prescribed. Last night was the first time I took it and....guess what....?? I slept! Yeah! Thanks for your post Biz.