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Basically, most bipolars have spells in which their behavior is significantly different from their usual behavior. The degree to which this is true can vary.

This is the reason I asked these questions, and why the answers/examples would help your doctor determine whether or not your are bipolar.

Your dark/bright post certainly suggests bipolar spectrum to me, but that isn't enough for a diagnosis. Mood instability can be present with other disorders. Most bipolars have times when they are not manic/hypomanic or depressed, although for some, these times might be few and far between. After a long time of unremitting cycling, it can be difficult to determine what is "in character".

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This suggests to me that you feel your behavior during "highs" remains consistent with your personality. Am I correct? Other interpretations are possible but I am just thinking in terms of bipolar here.

Type I bipolars almost always end up doing things that are out of character during manic episodes; when they "come down" they often experience at least one of the above. I didn't include shame, but I should have.

Type II bipolars do not do as many things that they ordinarily wouldn't or feel contrary about, so they are less likely to have these feelings. However some aftermath can occur, especially with more intense hypomania.

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Bipolar I = at least one Manic Episode, possible Major Depressive Episodes. (Depression incidence can be anywhere from pervasive to completely absent.)

Bipolar II = at least one Hypomanic Episode + at least one Major Depressive Episode.
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Patriotrising,

The sadness in your posts and audio is palpable.
I do appreciate your sense of humor.

Mari