Well, after all this time has passed since Wednesday evening, I have identified the underlying issue that had me so upset. When I look back on things that happened that evening it was not Doug so much that ignored me but the woman he was talking to. Doug did look at me when I walked past him and that lady that he was talking to. Well when he looked at me that gave me the nerve to walk up and speak to him. I remember telling him I had heard he had quit smoking. He responded to me. I had spoke to the lady that was already there and told her she looked familar. Well, she ignored me. Then later Doug mentioned pains in his arm and I said I had that too and she talked to Doug and bypassed me altogether. Because Doug was looking only at the lady when he talked to her and not at both her and I I got mad at him. I did not give him a chance though to do better. The whole problem I had with the anger and hurt was with me not them at all. I hated myself for not expressing how I felt to that lady. I felt embarrassed in front of Doug that I did not stick up for myself. It was really me I resented for not standing up for myself. I saw Doug yesterday evening talking to the same lady and I believe his roommate waved me over and Doug looked my way. I wasn't quite ready though to face the situation because I didn't know the underlying cause to rectify. Now I do know and can finally move on with it.

I don't know if you can realize how big a deal it is for me not to take hurt, humilulation, or pain laying down without doing anything about it. I was not allowed the freedom to do that when with my husband.

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