Thanks Nikko, it's hard to try to live in the moment sometimes, especially when stressing about something looming a couple weeks ahead of you like this move. I am really glad I can talk with all of you about my feelings and I really appreciate all your support. Thanks everyone!

I know the waiting is the worst. Then living among the boxes and all until the big day. It's good that you can get the keys and start moving little things or some boxes you don't need, it helps. Even if you get the keys the day before or so.

Everytime I move, I start packing things that I know I won't be using, or knicknacks, books, stuff like that.

We are all here for you....Nikko

p.s. I hate packing, yet I don't mind unpacking.....LOL

Thank you Nikko, I really appreciate the moral support, it really helps so much. I wish I could just stop worrying about things but there's not an off switch for anxiety unfortunately. I am so grateful for this forum and for all of you, you really understand the trauma and the anxiety problems I live with and that really helps, being validated and understood really helps.

My dh doesn't really understand the anxiety factor, but he makes an effort to be there for me so I don't feel so isolated. I thank God for him every day, it's been about twenty years that we've been together off and on and I can't see myself with anyone else. I know you just broke up with Mike Nikko, and I wanted to say that I hope you find a really nice guy when you're ready to start looking again.

I lived on my own for a year and did okay, it was hard being alone, but I had my son and neighbors which helped because I didn't have a working computer for months into that year. It's so hard when you're isolated from people like I was back then, I really suffered a lot of anxiety before I got the dx of BP II. I am really glad I have a good T and that she understands I need the avitan to help with the anxiety that is just gut wrenching.

Two and a half weeks and counting. I hope it's going to be a smooth move, but I am sure we'll hit a snag or two but with my dh with me I won't be worrying nearly as much.

Snag was hit today...they won't let us move anything in until the first, we had been told that we'd be able to put some boxes and stuff in the garage and today we were ready to go sign the lease and told no, we'd have to pay prorated rent just for STUFF, no beds, just boxes! So we're going to have to manage to get everything done in ONE darn day. Oh the humanity!

I also found out the stove is gas and that we had to have that turned on too in addition to the water and power. Amazing the things that the lady didn't tell us isn't it? She should have given me the number for the gas company, not me having to ask, "Oh btw is the stove gas or electric?" and be told that its gas, quite a shock. I don't know that I like having gas, gas scares me.

oh this is a snag....
just keep on keeping on...one day at a time pamster....
((((HUGS)))
bizi

Pam,

-->Gas is cool. The professionals use that.
And gas is invaluable if you live in a place like I do where one can loose electricty every so often due to natural disasters or due to incompetence of electric companies.

Having said that, I've never used gas and would have no idea how to deal with it.

-->Moving in one day, now that seems insurmountable to me. But you, Pam, are the master planner and you will be able to handle that. You will.

Can you find some other folks to help beside the two you already have?
Are you packed up yet?

(Ha! Sorry to joke about those things. Last night I told hubby that if he buys and purchases even one more item that is useless, then we can't afford to move out of here. Each item he brings home increases the cost and trouble of our next move.
He said he would move without me then. Oh, well. I tried. He can have all the junk he wants and I'll put off the next move off as long as possible. It will be our little game.

M.

Thanks bizi, thank you Mari, you're both right, I know it takes one day at a time, but it's just so frightening to think that we have to get everything moved in one day, probably even one trip. I hope that we're able to get everything done with no snags, but I am just so worried, I wish I could just shut the worrying off but it's there at the back of my mind constantly gnawing at me.

*deep breath* "It's going to work out, it's going to work out, it's going to work out." Maybe if I say it enough the worrying will turn down a notch...hehehehe, I sure hope it does.

Hey....I understand the anxiety, because I hate moving, although I should be a pro at it now. LOL I think my anxiety actually helps me get things going when moving. Because I can't sit still.

I personally like a gas stove. I have electric and it's just not the same, because you really can't control the heat as you can with gas. At least that's what I think.

What is the heat?

Everything is electric here, and it is more expensive.

Hang in there, time fly's..........Hugs, Nikko