Hi Bizi. I know that you are trying,and I know that it is difficult. Considering the amount of time that you have drank alcohol in your life,it's not easy to stop. You are going to need help to stop. I'm concerned about a possible binge drinking pattern. Please get some help. BF

Bizi,

Donna knows the words on the bracelet --- She raised three boys.

Your mom knows you well enough to point out when mania shows up.
Trust her.

Mari

I really missed it at first when Bizi was saying that thanks Mari.

Bizi

I was meaning, when you like it. It has a meaning for you even when
you are drinking and trying to stop. I think it can still hold a helping
hand for you. And that isn't what I'm wanting to say but its what
is coming out. SOrry.


So look for some other way to see this bracelet until you can start the
being free of alcohol again. Even if you never are.

And I agree call the Tdoc, I personally don't think AA is the answer for
you. Its to much anxiety and fear of the unknown if that makes sense.
Because you never know who is going to come.

You need to know who is going to be there. And the counselor can't
understand that. Even though my sister is a very outgoing person.
If she were still into drugs and alcohol. She wouldn't be able to
do AA. She has been AF as you say 18 years I believe. But
I also know how hard it was for her.

Donna

good morning, I too need to get back on tract of dieting and watching what I eat. have put on a couple of more pounds...slowly creeping back up again. Have been eating these wonderful donuts int he mornings they are all gone now. clients have been feeding me, need to politely say no that I am on a diet.
But the scarey thing that I read last night is how sugar feeds cancer cells and more specifically can contribute to breast cancer risks. I knew that alcohol did this.
It was called an inflammation state.
It said that you can literally starve cancer cells buy keeping your insulin levels low by following a very low carbohydrate diet. So for people who have cancer they should be told this. Maybe the nutritionist are already telling them this. I have a friend that has throat cancer that has been thru 3 rounds of chemo and starting radiation soon. with once a week chemo for 5 weeks.
I feel sorry for him.
Chances are good that he will lose his salivary glands, and other side effects, could lose taste too. He doesn't want to go thru with the treatments. I really feel for him.
No sugar for this woman!
Today I start my diet again. and that means cutting out my sugary beers! So I am going to try to be AF until mardi gras. so it is back to day one.
I am drinking just half and half with stevia this morning, not my usual french vanilla creamer full of sugar.
bizi

Hi, Bizi,

Thanks for that information.

I hope that today is a good day for you.

Mari

Dear Bizi,

I send good thoughts and vibes for your friend.

I hope that you are doing o.k. today.

M

maybe you could use the principles of aa and when you are in trouble seek your higher power rather than having internal raging battle within
love
bobby

thanks bobby, I am not having a raging battle so I am good.
thank you for your sweet words of encouragement.
I have switched to drinking my coffee black and chewing gum again in the evening to avoid snacking. is working happy to say!
bizi

This time around the days are just dragging, can't believe it is only day 3 down.
I thought yesterday was day 3.
sigh
It is so much harder not drinking this time.
Wolfie came strong on me tonight I actually told hubby that I was going to get some beer. said good bye to him he was out the door to see a concert and I left to the grocery store.
I walked in and went to the bathroom there and came out and talked myself out of the beer and instead bought myself some raspberries, a treat, a reward for not drinking. Paid for them and went home.Though When I got in the car I screamed FU wolfie!
I could not believe that I was that powerful enough to back away from it.
I ate them when I got home.
They were delicious!!!!
I did manage to save some for jeff.
So close tonight....am proud of myself for this.

That's great bizi. Small steps,and new beginnings BF