[Nikko]

Here I go again. I start the day off good, with all the things I need to get done, halfway through the day, I totally poop out, usually with a headache and need to lay down.

I talked to my P-doc and it's stress, and I need to do more than be a care giver for my mom, and a maid, chauffeur, cook, housekeeper, laundry lady, food shopper, etc..............................Now I have to go to therapy at a college nearby where the students working on there masters have to get so many hours in, yet are overlooked by real therapists for 10 visits.

Then there is this woman at the place I go where my p-doc is, that can give me some idea's on working part time, but it has to be something I like she said, and not stressful, or even volunteer. Or she will help me get into a program/certification for something to do with animals and help me get the financial aide or whatever.

The bottom line is I need to get out of the house everyday, away from it all for my mental health.

I am burning out she said. It's been at least 4 years or so that I have been a care giver.

I also miss Dirk, but he call's a few times a day, which always makes me laugh and we have good conversations. He will be back by the 4th of July.

My p-doc also said that IF I want to go away for a weekend (which she said I need badly) I should GO. Just make arrangements for my mom and dogs, I can get a bird feeders for my cockatiels.

Although my mom will give me a problem, she won't want anyone taking care of her but me. So I get the GUILT trips, then I feel badly.

When Dirk gets back we planned to just go overnight at a place nearby, a real nice nice hotel, go relax in the pool/jacuzzi, have a quiet dinner ALONE, champagne, they have music there so we can dance, watch the fireworks if there are any nearby, etc.

I think I am going to do that, the dogs will be fine overnight and the birds, and I will have my cell phone if my mom needs me , actually the hotel is only down the street.

I really need just one night, well really a weekend would be nice. I need to regenerate or decompress, whatever the word is.

Anyway, needed to vent, - whine.....pass the cheese please.....LOL

Thanks for listening or reading I mean.

I do get to the pool on the weekend afternoons, which is nice, yet my mom sometimes asks to go with me. It's in the high 90's hitting the 100 this weekend and I know she can't take that. Plus it's my only quiet time with friends.

Ok.....going on here, but you get the point.

I guess just live in the moment as I say for now.

Hugs, Nikko

[Pamster]

I hope it works out that you get to go to that hotel with Dirk Nikko, you need a nice night like that. I am glad you get to go to the pool like that on the afternoons, it helps me to get outside and into the sun for awhile to feel better. It's got to be really hard taking care of your mother like you have been, I can't imagine how difficult it must be. But you do it out of love and that makes you a wonderful loving person, and you should never take abuse from her be it verbal or otherwise. I am glad she's not been able to drink and all, how is her mental state these days?

I hope she's getting along better, I also hope that she can understand she can't go out in that kind of heat and be all right, it's too hot for her to be outside at the pool. But it's good for you that you can get to go and get away from it for awhile. It's hard for me to live in the moment, but thanks to you I am starting to get better at it, seeing your posts has been a lot of motivation for me and I just want to thank you for being such a great lady and for sharing yourself with us here. You're something else Nikko, and I appreciate being here with you.

[fiberowendy2000]

Nikko...I forgot to ask....how's your phone?

[Nikko]

Oh, my cell phone is fine.......it dried out, I charged it, and boom it went on!!!


Nikko

[Pamster]

Awesome your phone is okay. Hope you both have a great day, kiddo is due home any time now so I am going to be heading off.

[Just Jacquie]

Nikko - a getaway sounds like a FINE idea - maybe it should even be a planned event, every so often. I had thought about going to a Bed & Breakfast with hubby over Mother's Day week-end, but decided against it, but we are definitely going to plan it for sometime soon. There are many neat B & Bs around here. Do they have such a thing in Az?

Regardless of where you go, anything that takes you away from your home for a day or two is a great idea! It's a TOTAL break from routine, and the change of scenery doesn't hurt, either!

Hope you can plan one soon!

Jacquie

[fiberowendy2000]

Originally Posted by Nikko

Oh, my cell phone is fine.......it dried out, I charged it, and boom it went on!!!


Nikko

LOL You lucky gal you!