Now it's the hard part, the long tedious waiting, I washed up all our non-essential kitchware and packed a storage tub full of cookware that we don't use daily and other plastic containers and such. It felt good to get the kitchen started since I have to clean it to a degree before we leave. I am so anxious to get this move over and done with. I packed away three garbage bags full of clothes and stuffed them behind the bean bag chairs in the walk in closet so I did a LOT today.

But also I am waiting to hear about this grant I applied for, called The Gift Of Freedom, check it out here:

http://www.aroomofherown.org/

Its a fifty thousand dollar grant over two years, and it's give to struggling women writers. I hope that my essays moved the judges and that they picked me. I wrote some of the best essays I've ever composed for this application package and I hope that it's enough that they will choose me to receive the grant so I could get a new car, pay off my wheelchair, get some dental implants, things like that.

SO I won't know until the middle of June before they announce the winner on their website. I am just wondering if they chose me and I've moved before they chose to inform me that they might be put off that we moved you know? I don't know, I am just worried because I put so MUCH effort into this process, it took me MONTHS to compose these essays, and if I am not the one they chose I plan on trying again in the next grant period, for 2009.

Not about to take NO for an answer on this one. So any tips on how I can get through the waiting? Besides day dreaming about living in the new place? Jackie will be in summer school by the time they update the site naming the winner, they updated recently and have four finalists listed which my name was not among the four so I am greatly encouraged that I will have been picked because they almost picked a mother with two handicapped children and I think they will appreciate the disability awareness I focus so tightly on in my writings.

HELP! I don't know how to make this waiting period bearable, I know each day it's closer to knowing and to being in the new place, but I am so anxious it's just driving me batty! Any advice for me is appreciated.