maybe you just need to get some good sleep. I am hoping the new adjustment will help.
sorry that you are angry.
sorry about your no heat in the building on wed.
burr!

It is 55 degrees right now with a wind chill advisory (wind gusts).
I am going to contact work buddy to ask if there is heat in the building today so I have a sense of how Friday will go.

I could not tell the difference with the cpap but I can hope that it made things better.
I woke up soooooooooooooooo depressed.

Mari

maybe it will take time to adjust to the adjustment.
bizi

Hi, Bizi, I hope that you are o.k.


I am having a hard time.

M

I am sorry that you are having a hard time.
I am doing ok. except for my increased use of being on the computer and going to the chat rooms for smart.
I am ****** off that my mdoc has not posted my t4 lab results. I paid for them they are mine don't i have the right to know what they are. like can't i go in a get a copy of my medical record? Isn't that my right?
bizi:mad:

Yes. Go to the office to get them.

M

1 My afternoon activity went o.k.

2 I bundled up with two coats and managed to get through the play in the cold auditorium. 'Even fell asleep for part of it.


M

Sending you some hugs.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

been cursing a lot
 

I feel some movement in the depression. . . . like a slight easing.

Maybe because I do not have to see that pdoc ever again.

I forgot to cancel my appt for Tuesday and I don't care.
And I have anger again. :mad: It is back. :mad: 'Was not gone for long. :mad: I missed it. :mad:

are you angry with your pdoc's office?
bizi

Mostly angry in general.

The new pdoc's office confirmed for THursday at 3:15

Hope it keeps lifting.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Mari, I sure hope your days are getting better. Maybe anger is a good thing sometimes. I lets it out a bit and maybe stops the pressure of it all building up inside so much. Depends I guess. :hug:

Yes. Other things too.

I dislike how very hard it is to keep track of my meds. -- It is a lot of work and requires focus and concentration and record keeping abilities.
WHY can't I pick up all my meds once a month? Why they are on different dates? How the heck did that get messed up? . . . . . that I am at the pharmacy a lot?

. . also about how old pdoc's office stunk about phone calls and nearly everything else.

I hate the federal rules about Klonopin.
I wish that I did not need it or any of my other meds.

M

Yes. to the depends part.

I am so confused.

. .. . only know that in some moments of the day one could find me "managing" but I don't feel like I am managing.


M

Struggling tonight.

Mari

I sure understand the picking up meds all month. Wish I had a idea
for you. Keep working on getting them closer together.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

can you refill them 3 days early? if you can then refill some of them earlier than others until they are closer together, this will take a few months and patience but is doable.
I am sorry that your meds are such a hassle. Hubby still helping you?
I can have refills for my klonipin just have to show my drivers license. I see my pdoc once every 4 months now for med maintenance she spends about 15-20 minutes with me...and charges me $95 for the visit. She doesn't take my insurance. But have been with her for over 10 years so she knows my history. She really dissappointed me when she thought that lamictal would help prevent mania...sigh
bizi
Her staff is excellent, thank goodness.

new pdoc seemed good
 

1. At the new pdoc's office I refused to sign the forms, telling them that I had been there a year and a half ago. They said they needed new paper work because it had been longer than eight months.
I told the girl I needed help to fill them out. She said, "You really can't fill them out?" I said, "I really can't."
Then she asked me to sign a bunch a blank forms:
-- eight pages
-- eleven signatures

2. I was in the waiting room for more than two hours.

3. Finally, I was moved to another room where a VERY annoying girl/student did a pre-interview. After 4 or 5 questions I told her to stop.
I cried and told her I came only to see the doctor and get medications.
She got up and ran out of the room to get the pdoc.



4. 'Saw new pdoc for a short visit and got new 'scripts. He was nice.
I brought my med bottles from the other pdoc with me.
He and I spent the appt time making sure that the new 'scripts were right.


5. The office has the meds delivered to my home but I think I am supposed to do something ???? Call the company to arrange a time ??? Not sure.

6. When I walked out the desk person handed me a printout of the visit:
~medications prescribed
~next appt date (2 months)
~diagnosis

sounds exhausting....
HATE it that you had to fill out those forms again....
sigh
bizi
It sounds like you got what you needed.
call about the prescriptions, wouldn't you rather pick them up yourself?????
maybe not:hug:

Bizi,

I do not have a choice. They send in the meds electronically and have them delivered.
Maybe there is a reason why they think this is a good idea for them.
And I hate dealing with my drug store -- it is such a hassle.
======================
The meds people called me today to get the co-pay from me.
They are going to have three of the meds delivered to my door tomorrow.:Dancing-Chilli:
The other med (Verapamil) will be delivered I believe on Monday.

(My podiatrist does the ointment this way too but his stuff is coming from a compounding pharmacy.)

I am hopeful that this works.

M

I personally liked having the meds delivered at home.

Except Derrick's because they would just decide to substitute the
brand which the doctor ordered for Generic. Even after being
told not too.

There are many generics on some of the meds. This isn't good for
epilepsy meds.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Donna,

Some drugs cannot be substituted. :hug::hug::hug:

It takes vigilance to keep track of these things.

M

Yes Mari.


So I refuse to do the mail order for this. His medicaid will pay for it
locally. So I think its fine. I pay $3.00 or he does. Instead of the
$10 or $20.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

The meds did not get delivered yesterday.
I was sleeping all day.
The delivery guy called at 11:00 am but I did not check messages until late afternoon. I am trying to be o.k. about this.
I told Hubby to answer my cellphone when the guy calls Monday.

---------------------------
Yesterday/ Saturday I went swimming (45 mins very slow) for the first time since Jan 20 or so.
I could not find my skim cap so I swam without it.


=====
MOOD STATUS
Yesterday I was not depressed when I woke up
Today I woke up very depressed. I slept from 7:00 am to 4:00 pm for nine hours of sleep.


Mari

Thank you, Donna,

That is good to know.
'It is good that he can get his needs met.

Mari

I am glad that you got a swim in!
sorry about your meds...what a hassle.
bizi
9 hours is decent sleep!

I am wondering what the hangup is with the meds. . . . considering going back to the other pdoc because getting one's meds should be simple and easy.

The Verapamil did not get delivered Tuesday.
I think that the company has my wrong address. I need to call but I hate to deal with people.


Hubby and I went to the beach. It was 75 degrees and windy.
We were only there an hour because I felt cold even though I wrapped myself in the sheet that we brought for a beach blanket (found chairs available instead)
Also perhaps I was antsy. Hubby was in a good mood.
(Sometimes he does better when I drive, so, because I knew our favorite
spot was changed due to construction, I did the driving and parking.)

M

i would be cold with that wind.....we are expecting 20's tomorrow night. 75 today! crazy weather!
bizi

long
 

Hi,

1 Friday I felt completely awful.
Lots of brain fog and sluggishness.
It is good that I am on the exact same meds and same manufacturer right now -- have not started on the new ones from the new pharmacy.
Other wise I would attribute the awful head fog to a new pill.
So I am trying to find something good in the brain fog.


2 'Heard from the brother with the crazy schedule (brother#1) .
He said he is pretty sure that he would be sure of being available for me to visit in April.
I told him that mid MAY was going to be better for me.

Oh, And the other night I told the baby brother (brother #2) that I would see him and his wife for two days in the summer.
The s-i-l was sweet and delighted.

So if I can figure out the money I might be seeing each of the brothers two nights each sometime in the sumer.

3 Tonight I spent 40 mins picking stuff /trash
off the floor
or
in the trash
and making piles in the appropriate rooms.


4 I recently bough a weight lifting CD at home that I did Thursday.
It was tough.
I was mostly using five pound hand weights and one move was 3 pounds and one or two moves I didn't do because of needing to use my knees
(I skipped the squats.) Anyway, my aim is to do this two or three times a week.

I think when I do the DVD Saturday, I will increase the weight to 7.5 and the ones I did with 3 try to do with 5.
This plan is to do 3 sets of 10 reps with heavy weights.
Here is the DVD:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00...?ie=UTF8&psc=1
30 Minutes to Fitness: Muscle Up Lift 2B Fit with Kelly Coffey-Meyer

When I feel more confident about my feet and get stronger in other ways, I can go to the gym,
but now that the living room floor is cleared off (again), I can do weights there.

5 I am still somewhat doing my exercises for the knee but I took a breaks from icing my feet and applying ointment.
Prolly should do the feet on Sat and Sun to be ready to go back to work on Monday.
I did not have a good time at the pool the last three times I went,
so rather than force myself to go to the gym, I am going to do the weightlifting DVD three days a week and my yoga DVD four days. here at home

That is the goal for now anyway.
I can modify it as needed.

M

Wow!
You are motivated to do home exercising!!!!!
yeah!!!
good for you.
and you cleaned up the floor too.
I know this makes you feel good.
have a great weekend. sorry for the brain fog, do you drink coffee?
bizi

Hi, Bizi,

I do not drink coffee.

I am depressed. So I am trying to make the exercising thing as easy as possible-- at home for example.

M

i am sorry you are depressed....:hug:

Tough days.

depression and sleep
 

This is how I have slept the last three nights:

Friday "night"……….8:00 am -12:00 noon = 4 hours of sleep
Saturday "night"... 8:00 am - 4:00 pm…..= 8 hours of sleep
Sunday "night".…...5:00 am - 7:00 am…..= 2 hours of sleep

So for the past three "nights" I had a total of 14 hours of sleep.

I wonder if should chart sleep for the pdoc and moc so that they can SEE what I mean when I say that I have sleep ISSUES.


M

Mari

I think it would help you to track the times for the docs. And yourself.
That way you wont harp on how little maybe.

Just write it down and forget it.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

yes that is a good idea,
you could also do it with a mood chart if you felt like it.
It would be useful for your sleep doctor for sure!
sorry you got only 2 ours last night are you going back to bed today?
bizi

My mom is in so much denial about many things.
She has it so bad that she remembers things completely opposite of what happened.

do your siblings say the same thing about your mom?
bizi