Dear Pamster,
What a scare!
Sorry about the near miss accident...how scarey is that!
What a day.
It drives me crazy when I can't find something...I am a creature of habit and routine and like things in their places...so when something is a miss...I contact my hubby and ask him if he has used it...he is notorious for not putting things back where they belong.
anyway
hang in there bizi

I feel much better knowing that some of you have done this too and that you understand what I went through yesterday, I was so scared, but it worked out. It's so hard to deal with that kind of fear when you suddenly think you've let people you love down in a really horrible way. It would have been so awful to have to tell Jack that I lost our son's iportant medication like that. I was so afraid that I had let him and Jackie down for those ten minutes I scarbled to find his medication.

I hope to never have that happen again, since it's really the first time it happened to me I really didn't know what to do except to keep looking. It's all over now though and I feel so much better now. Thank you for the replies, again I am relieved no one was triggered by this, I feel it's better to be safe then sorry though and that is why I used trigger icons on this and the other thread.

Totally with all of you. When I get my mind set on something I am like a pit bull with BP and go crazy until I find what I am looking for or the chore is done.
It will come in handy when I go back to work but I could do without the manic part of it.

I hear you on the manic part, I think it's probably the hardest thing to deal with because it can feel good sometimes and other times it's like you don't feel comfortable in your own skin no matter what you do.

Hope things go well with the job hunting. While we were out yesterday Jack was saying I ought to go back to work and get a desk job somewhere in the city. I personally don't think it would work out to be worth it since we'd have to pay for health insurance and I don't see us being able to cover everything on what I could conceiveably make in the workplace.

I'm so glad the medication problem was quickly resolved.

As far as the job, well I think part time might be better to start off with. Then you wouldn't lose your SSDI or benefits.

I personally don't know how in the world I could work with having to care for my mom, my BP II, my severe pain issues, and then all the household things I have to do.

Just my 2 cents.

Hugs, Nikko

That is just how I feel, although Jack is confident he could do it all, I just don't know. It's an awful lot to do, taking Jackie to doctor appointments once every two months and sometimes twice in one month, it depends on the specialist he has to see. Anyway, I don't want to work really, it's really not worth it to me at the present time, besides writing is where my heart is and I have to get back to it soon. I would love to get published but it's almost like having a desk job in some ways, so hopefully I will get my first novel whipped into shape before too long and get good email queries out to some agents who might take it on and rep it to some publishers for me. That's how the game is played.

That sounds like a good plan to me!

Good Luck, Hugs, Nikko