Bizi

So glad your back.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

He is a hero!
bizi

He really is.

I hate reinstalling OS's even if I've done it literally dozens of times. The trepidation that hangs over me is palpable.

I always fear I will forget to back something up, find some original software disk is corrupt and won't install...etc. Probably why I chose to hand-clean my system, even at the risk of breaking it... figured let's worry about reinstalling after it breaks, not before. :D

I'm glad everything went smoothly, and your system is now clean.

I wonder if you've thought of doing something special for Jeff as a thank you. Even a silly small thing. He's sure to appreciate some form pampering or extra attention after that ordeal.

We went out for char broiled oysters and crawfish for dinner tonight. Does that count?:o I should thank him properly for his efforts.
The electrician finally followed up and called me about coming to our house to install a chandelar and an outlet for jeffs bathroom if it will work. Jeff is not bothered that he has his tooth brush on the bedroom dresser. There should be an outlet in there! He is coming next tuesday at 0730....I wanted him to be done in a couple of hours before I had to leave to go to work, jeff may or may not be able to stay if need be.
I was told to leave the chandelar in the box, so it has been in a box in the living room now for over a year!!!!
I think the guy will eventually come and work on the shed. needs to be repaired, pressure washed, primed and painted.
bizi

IMHO Bizi, Crawfish always counts!!! :) Yumsterlicketylips!!! :D:p

Good luck with the electrician today. :)

I called the electrition and asked if he could come later on tuesday, he said yes to 9 am. Hubby agreed to be there for him. I thanksed hubby again for the computer work, he said it was not hard just took a long time.
bizi

Good about the electrician.

Good that Jeff did not seem to feel bothered by the computer stuff.

No, reinstalls aren't hard from a technical standpoint, mostly just a lot of tedium and time, as long as you don't fret like I do. I've seen how my anxiety sets me apart from my development peers. Whereas I freak out, seeing hidden dangers at every turn, they are able to be more clinical, which translates to better executive functioning. It sounds like Jeff has that ability, as well. :)

My poor friend susan is in north carolina, for a wedding.
SHE IS NOT doing well.
As we speak she is having a major panic attack. I called and her daughter answered the phone. They had to pulll over into a neighborhood and they are sitting on the side of the road, on their way to this wedding that she now doesn't want to go to. she wants to go straight to her dads place miles away.
I asked if she wanted to talk to me and he said call back later.
sigh
I really feel for them.
bizi

Yeah, I feel bad for her too. Is her husband with her in the car as well, or just the daughter?

I kinda hope she just goes to her dad's. Who can do a wedding under those conditions. :(

She was in the car with her husband. as far as I can tell she went to the rehearsal dinner. the wedding is tomorrow. sigh
bizi

She ended up calling me back crying paralyzed...it was terrible.She said the drive has been awful hours of no one talking, her daughter is 17 just graduated from high school. So there she sat... her and her negative thoughts she feels so alone. I finally gave her some advice.(I was grasping for straws) Her mother in law is elderly. I suggested that she focus on her...to look after her, help her get food, drink what ever she needed. I think she will do that. the wedding is tomorrow. She told me she has not been sleeping even though she is taking 12 mg of ambien....I think she needs to be hospitalized....
sigh
bizi
I wonder how the rehearsal dinner went...don't know what time the wedding is...I am getting my hair colored tomorrow and then probably go to the gym.
I will text her in the morning.

That is very worrisome, Bizi.

Maybe after she comes back you can ask her if she'd be willing to check herself in.

I wonder if there are any other wrap-around care options. It does sound as though she needs something like that. :(

You are a good friend. You are doing the best you can. More you cannot do.

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Enjoy the hair dresser and the gym.

(((hugs))) :circlelove:

waves

thank you waves.
I texted her" how did it go last night?" and have not heard from her....
bizi

Rats! :( I wonder if she ever turns her phone off when she feels that rotten?
But also with the wedding today, assuming she went, she'll be super busy... at best. Let's hope for the super busy explanation. :o

:hug::hug:

I texted her several times thru out the day and also her husband...no response...
sigh
bizi

my mind thinks that what I said did not help....
sigh
bizi
I did not make it to the gym today, my leg is sore still.
I am thinking about joining a running group tomorrow at 6 pm they are running 3 miles. maybe I could jog with them...or maybe they would run laps around me????
maybe I could ask my friend to go with me..?

If running with a group appeals to you, it might be nice. You might get some interesting feedback too, on what is a good idea and what is not when different places hurt.

Do they 'run' or 'jog', and what about you? I used to say I went running but I mostly used to jog. I know other people who 'run' though.... and they really run.

So then, it partly depends on the pace that you keep when you practice in the gym and whether it at least matches theirs. (OMG do I need to get used to writing practise again? :eek:) I'd have to look back, but you do more than 3 miles in the gym, right? So distance wise you should be covered at least.

this is a good point waves. I only jog. they may run! and may be a group of marathoners!
yikes I think I will post that question to them on facebook tonight they may answer tomorrow before the gathering.
thanks for making this point!
bizi who can't sleep because I drank too much so I took another klonipin....
I bought 2- 6 packs of beer, one a dark heavy stout and the other a high alcohol content hurricane flavored sweet beverage. That was an eight pack.
I need to be alcohol free again, feel the bloating and gaining weight....not good. have been drinking all week afraid to get on the scale again.
sigh
bizi

these are runners I looked up some of the members times 8-9 minute miles.
3 mile runs. The route seems simple enough to not get lost so I could start with them and then finish on my own I suppose. If I jog at 5 mph that is roughly a 13 minute mile. They run in the evening which is perfect for me.
6 pm today...I am not going to be in any shape if I don't get to bed and sleep.
sigh
klonipin is not kicking in am afraid.
sigh
bizi

Sorry you can't sleep, Bizi. :(

I always find that getting trashed makes me super tired/sleepy... for a short while, but then I get super antsy as I start to sober up (have even had weird muscle jerks then). That lasts a while (sometimes hours), and I cannot sleep during that time, but after it subsides, I feel exhausted and then can sleep. I'm guessing your extra Klonopin usually mows through that antsy-phase. But it will abate on its own, too. It's just very inconvenient for getting up in the morning, not to mention unpleasant. :(

Hang in there. You will be ok. Tomorrow is a new day. And Sunday, so you can sleep later maybe?

:hug::hug::hug:
waves

hi
do you know what prompted you to buy the beer? is it possible that you can only drink one can. st pauli i think puts out an alcohol free beer. you have worked so hard and hopefully you have proved something to yourself. i still miss cigarettes and i know if i have one i will start smoking again. i can imagine the way you feel about alcohol.
It is so hard!
bobby

thanks waves and bobby.
I guess I felt I was missing out on the fun of drinking.
I don't know if it was the rejection from susan and paul or just rebellion. I did get on the scale and was NOT HAPPY.
All of that hard work, the bloating and weight gain sigh I should not drink. got up at 11:15 this am.so I did sleep in. There is alot of alcohol left in the house.
I was accepted to the group of the runners and asked them about joggers?
so we will see if they write me back. I could call them and ask...there is a number, maybe I will just do that.
bizi

Bizi,

This is a binge. It is good to question what draws you into these... things like desire for the fun, like feeling hurt by Susan etc. Asking yourself these questions will build your awareness. The more awareness you have, the more you will be able to take charge, or choose different paths in the future.

You can and you will recover from this setback. :circlelove:

I hope the runners say joggers are ok. ;):)

waves

i was accepted to the runners group. the geaux run business was closed for the day. another member posted that I would be welcome to the group. so next sunday it is. I am going to try to jog on monday night my right hip still bothers me. it is musculature as well as joint pain/soreness.
a week, I should be over normal soreness.
thank you for your messages to me bobby and waves.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Bizi,
 

That is great news, Bizi!

You can look forward to next Sunday.:hug::hug::hug:

M

I went over there tonight to meet some of them at the last minute. It was pouring down rain by the time I got there...had I run this I would have been a drenched rat!
I met several runners and they encouraged me to post that I was looking for a running partner, on the facebook page.
The 2 ladies that I spoke with/ hung out with are running a 50K (32 mile) run thru sugar cane fields, 7 different plantations....wow!
they were all very nice. Couple of them even ran with their dogs!
There are other runs around town at 6pm I think on tuesday. Not that far from my house.
I was happy to meet new people and they were all so nice.

Jeff got a text from paul, susans husband. He said that susan may stay in north carolina for a while and then may go spend time at his sisters farm in wisconsin which is an excellent idea, except what to do with her daughter abigail who is 17. Paul is leaving to go to Iowa for 5 weeks soon and would leave susan alone with abigail. Not sure what is happening but at least there are some options.
bizi

Aug 2013-Jan 2014 165 days AF, July 30- AF, August 19- AF, 8 DD, 4 mod., September 21- AF, 6 DD, 3 mod. October 14- AF, 3 mod, 14 DD, November: 17- AF, 2 mod, 11-DD. December: 12- AF, 2 mod, 17 DD. January: 12-AF, 18-DD.1 mod. January 23rd day one AF. February: 28- AF. March: 31- AF, April: 30AF (jan 23rd to may 23rd 2015= 121 AF longest in over a year!)
May: 24-AF, 4 mod, 3-DD.

5-1 AF Gym 5K(3.2miles)=40 mins!! 4.81 miles 60 mins, 5 miles in 64 mins, (jog 6 min 5mph, walk 1 min 3.5mph) fit bit: 13,748 steps, 6.85 miles, 2183 cals
5-2 AF 100 Days AF! Calling it way early. I have got this!
5-3 AF
5-4 AF gym, 5k=40:30, 60 min 4.76 miles, 5 miles in 65 min, not as good, harder!
5-5 AF, walked in neighborhood 2 miles 40 minutes.
5-6 AF gym 90 mins 10K 6.4 miles very tired hard and slow! 3miles 40 min then down hill
Left hip is sore...will wait until next monday to go again...see if hip is better.
5-7 AF
5-8 AF
5-9 AF (107 AF, made it thru an art walk!)
5-10 AF
5-11 AF gym walked on tred mill 3.5 mph for one hour. hip is ok.
5-12 AF
5-13 AF gym jog 5 min then arc trainer for one hour, (fit bit 5.16 miles) hip was stiff.
5-14 AF walk in Neighborhood 2 miles (fit bit total 3.13 miles)
5-15 AF
5-16 AF gym one hour arc trainer, hip fine.
5-17 AF (115 AF)
5-18 AF
5-19 AF gym 60 minutes jog/walk
5-20 AF 2 mile walk in neighbor hood
5-21 AF gym 5 miles in 70 minutes, 4.55 miles in 60 minutes
5-22 AF
5-23 AF 139.5 (121AF)
5-24 mod 3 ciders,
5-25 143 this am, ran 1st 5K memorial day run!
5-25 DD 8 drinks (2 beers 3 margaritas, 3 black cherry mikes hard lemonaide)
5-26 Mod 3 mikes black cherry hard lemonaide
5-27 AF ran 4.88 miles in 60 minutes fit bit 6.5 miles total to day
5-28 Mod 3 drinks
5-29 did not sleep well last night...need to be AF again, weight gain bloated etc
5-29 DD beer tasting and 2 big beers..7:42 and I feel drunk.
5-30 DD 5 drinks
5-31 Mod 3 drinks- 146.5 this am
June will be a dry month!

bizi