I am reading these one at a time.
Maybe in a later post you feel differently.
Often phone calls are / can be energizing even if they do not start that way so two phone calls by themselves might not be a sign of anything important / revelatory.

My thoughts are that if you think that you are heading towards manic territory, then you probably are.

'Will read the next post.

M

Waves,

Can I go?

It sounds lovely.
You still have time to see how you feel.

Depending on all sorts of things, sometimes it is good to go to these things slightly manic (unless it will make your more energized) because you would be coming across as interested and interesting.

You will be able to deal better than you would if you were depressed.

M

Benzos help. 'Just saying.

M

I know what you are getting at, but I'm not a seasonal cycler, nor does the weather affect me.

If anything, I've noticed more and more, over the years, that I am very susceptible to psychosocial triggers.

I can actually put my finger on when this 'upness' started. It started after the first meetup.

I didn't want to go to that... I had to force myself. Got there and just wanted to hightail it back home. Stuck through parts, gathered a little momentum. Got home felt exhausted but happy... and then started to feel overwhelmed... head doing gymnastics, bla bla.

For a while, my reactions were probably in line with (normal stress response) to a change in activity level. I was doing constructive things for my life, both socially and professionally, but new things. Feeling somewhat intense, nervous, and agitated is a reasonable reaction to that.

But it does seem to have spun out of control.

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Not-so-healthy things going on:

-- Feeling suddenly crazy into some strange dude, then deciding he is an identity thief, then deciding his awesome again, then deciding he's a jerk, then deciding he's a fake again, then deciding ... (need I go on?) .... this is less normal.

-- Having certain other certain strong sx I will not say here, which in my case tend only to happen when I'm 'up'. This started shortly (days) after that first meetup.

-- I have not been sleeping as much the past couple weeks (average 4-5 hours, I think)

I am not real bad off, as you can see I am able to self-observe. However, I am not able to control the emotions, nor even my occasional promenades down Paranoid Lane. That is why I think I might need to curtail some activities.

This may not actually be 'mania' or 'hypomania', if it is a psychosocial response, but it is still some over-the-top reaction and one that seems to be gathering momentum.

The main risk is that I'll end up crashing hard.

Hi waves,

I haven't known you long enough to form an opinion as to whether this is a manic issue, but you certainly come across as though Anxiety and Stress caused by your current interactions are making an appearance.

As for Thursday. If it is a 'laid-back' event, why not? But, as bizi says, you can decide on the day depending on how you feel.

Dave.

Would love that!

That is true, but I am not having any trouble at all socializing right now.

If anything I might worry about getting too interested and especially, too interesting.It will, and that is exactly why I'm wondering if I shouldn't just stay home, even though I want to go.

It's called, "keep the crazy girl inside, before she finds a way to do real damage."

Yeah, especially when you take them... I forgot again!

Thanks for the feedback, Dave. 'Preciate every drop I can get right now!

Yes, I will not decide about tomorrow, till the last minute.

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I just saw that the third group also has an event next week that sounds nice, with live irish music! I have been wanting to go to their events, but have not made it due to scheduling conflicts so far.

I will treat that the same way though... decide at last minute.

waves

Waves

Good luck on figuring this out.

Donna

Thank you, Donna!