I hope that you sleep, Kay.

Good luck tonight and tomorrow.

Get back to us Thursday.

M

I think that stopping the zoloft is a good idea.
I hope you sleep well tonight if you can.
bizi

Mari,

I forgot to let you know that I do take Laduta with food. They say at least 350 calories. I finish dinner an hour before I take my pm pills (including Latuda) but I eat a twinkie beforehand for good measure (roughly 350 cal).

Despite eating well (ignore the twinkies), often, and a lot, it's been a struggle to gain weight and keep it on. I have blood work drawn more often than most people because of that, and it's all normal. I'm 5'8" and went from about 140+lb 1.5-2yr ago to a low of 113lb 2-3mo ago. Monday I was up to 120!!!

I know it's not particularly good for me, but for right now, I'm sticking with the 3-twinkie-a-day diet. They're just adjunct therapy, and right now I'm reading the results on the scale.

The weight loss began slowly around the time the hypo episodes became more frequent. I figured it had been the drinking, but I lost weight after I left the psych ward even though I was dry for 3mo after I left, then had only 1-2 beers every month or two after that, and still lost weight instead of gaining it.

I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't worried that I was going to lose more weight now that I'm manic. Now I have a "NO BEER!" sign on my fridge and a "DON'T FORGET TO EAT!" sign on my freezer.

I slept for 6 hours straight!!!

But then I popped right out bed, peed, and started cleaning the kitchen floor.

Not out of the realm for me to crash in the middle of an episode. But this morning, everything's still there but much more bearable.
Hopefully this means this is event is coming to a close.

Whatever it is, I'll take it.

Thank you for sharing kay and I am glad that you got 6 hours of sleep.
good luck today.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Kay,

I hope that the episode is coming to a close and that you are getting a break from all of that.

You probably have a very clean apartment.

M

Yeah...

Spoke too soon- hypo is worse now. Sleep just helped recharge it.
I think Waves' and the pdoc's suspicions that the akasthisia-like symptoms might be from the hypo are probably true. STILL NOT S/S.

I had an appointment scheduled with the therapist for today, the pdoc suggested I cancel it. VERY good call. I'm SO agitated. NOBODY could tolerate being in such a small office with me for 5 minutes right now. Therapy would be helpful with the thoughts I'm having, but not in this state...
Now dwelling on before, during, after s/s attempt.

Although I'm not paranoid now, I'm remembering that I was very paranoid and labile in the psych ward.
I did do more research on Abilify and I'm going to remind the pdoc of that when I see her tomorrow and we can talk about if it would be more appropriate....
This is a different animal, but I think most of that has to do with the fact that this is my first hypo episode since my s/s attempt.
She said I should see results from the Latuda in a week. It will be a week tomorrow- that would be magical. I'm obviously not seeing ANY results. Maybe I'm burning through yet another drug, but she comes across as thinking this is very difficult and unusual.

Kay

Kay

That is not good at all.

Yep. I hope that you and your doc get this worked out very woon.

It might be better than what you are on now that is for sure.

Mari

just sending some hugs your way.
good luck tomorrow.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Last doses of 100mg of Benadryl and 1mg Xanax coincided perfectly and proved useful in calming me down for a little while.

My therapist called me and she was concerned. I appreciate that, and told her so. She said I should have still come in. I know she is experienced, but in the calmest way possible made it clear to her that she was greatly underestimating the level of my agitation. It was very kind of her to call.

My appointment is tomorrow afternoon.

Thank you for all the love, hugs, and support
Kay