yes call in the morning.
happy for you to be doing this!
bizi

I'm so impatient I called back yesterday. The lady said she was happy I called back because she realized she didn't have my email.
She said she hoped she'd get to emailing me the med thing yesterday, but nothing yet.
I want to get that form to pdoc tomorrow at the latest so I can get it back to them on time. Like I said, she doesn't work every day.

My poor husband threw his back out lifting too much weight in the wrong way. He thinks he's He-Man. He can barely walk. He called out of work... something he NEVER does. I mean NEVER.
I'm trying to help him, but he doesn't like it when he feels like he's being told what to do. He's anti-heating pad and ice now because he somehow got it into his head that they would cure him in a couple of hours...
He's taking a hot shower now. And he's going to get onto the inversion table he got when he hurt his back a few years ago. Then I'm going to try to get him on the floor later to see if I can work any of the muscle knots out.

Our apartment mgmt. co. is doing walk throughs today. They're probably looking for people who are living like pigs or are destroying their apartments. But I want to show them all the maintenance issues that they've half a$$ed resulting in our apartment looking in a dump despite our hefty rent... I hope they're bringing a clip board. I'm not happy my husband will be here. I hope he lets me do the talking because he has a temper and is in a very bad mood already because of his back.

I am sorry...has he ever tried biofreeze or arnica? good luck today
bobby

Kay,

Good luck with the inspecition. My old management company said that
they were only looking for holes in the wall or water damage.

I hope that your husband gets better with his method of healing.


Mari



(Hubby like the arnica cream -- it is a homeopathic marketed for light to moderate pain)

I understand trying to get this kind of stuff done on a timeline.

I hope that it works out the way you need it to work out.
M

My husband suffered a lot yesterday. The inversion table didn't go well, and after I gave him the massage he couldn't get off the floor. I made him take 800mg of ibuprofen for pain and inflammation and he decided to give heat a chance again. He went to bed still barely able to walk, and he was groaning in his sleep trying to turn over, but when I woke up he was gone. The (expletive) went to work.

The apartment people came and said they were testing fire alarms, looking at carpet, and looking under sinks. I'm friendly with one of the girls who came, although I haven't been into the office in over a year. I handed them a list of repairs I want done lol. They didn't expect that.

The lady from the driving class emailed me the medication release, but it wasn't until after 4. So, I wasn't able to get it to the office yesterday. I'm going to drop it off today.
On the release it states somewhere, "clients' mental and, at times, emotional participation can be quite intensive."
I guess I should be concerned by that, but I'm not. They're referring to discussions about substance abuse and I have enough "safe" stories to share on that subject to satisfy them (you have to satisfy them before they will send a letter of completion to the court). I have no intention of bearing my soul to these people.
Anyway, since it's on the release, pdoc's going to see that part and is going to have to sign off on it. I attached a letter explaining what it was for, and reminding her I'm stable. I wonder if she's going to call me before she signs it. I'm going to be SUPER ****** if she won't.

Kay

My husband told his boss that he wouldn't be lifting anything heavy yesterday. I'm surprised they let him work at all because they know he injured himself on the job. But his back held out for him, despite his 11hr day. He's in a lot of pain, and is not moving around well. I bought him some Aspercreme, it actually has 4% Lidocaine in it. That's another thing I'm surprised is available OTC now. It seems to have worked a little bit. I hope a weekend of rest helps restore him.

I used my old pharmacy yesterday because their coupon for a med was about $30 vs. the about $75 coupon at my new pharmacy. The plan was to pick it up on my way back from dropping off the med release at pdoc's office. To make a long story short, I lost my temper twice because of screw ups- a very, very rare occurrence in the last 10mo. and it doesn't feel good. I had to pay an extra $10 in "waiting time" for cab fare because I was in there for 20min. At least I still saved money.
I have to go to the new pharmacy today. I'm thrilled... but at least I know my scripts will be ready.

Thinking about it, I'm not sure if I should be concerned about the weekend because it requires, "mental and, at times, emotion participation (that) can be quite intensive" or not...
I am very open with all of you, and I know that you realize I'm vulnerable. But I am quite used to hiding my emotions and usually remain stoic. I'm going to try my best to only focus only on the substance abuse element. The rest is not their business. To be honest, I do feel like some of these programs give themselves more credit than they deserve in the emotional department because everyone is there because the court has mandated it.

That being said, it sounds like it may be hard to remove myself from uncomfortable situations if the need arises, which is my usual coping mechanism and that makes me weary. I don't know how I'll respond under those conditions. And I can forsee someone pressing me hard about the neck scar, and I can see myself responding to it in an, ahem, less than lady-like way.

The things I have working for me are:
1. I'm stable on meds
2. I've been mostly taking 1mg Klonopin in the am, although my script is written for "1mg up to 3mg a day." So I have some control there and
3. I'm capable of stifling emotion to a certain extent

The things I have working against me are:
A lot of unknowns

I can't wait to get that paperwork. I do much better with more information.

So, what say you?

Kay I think you are doing amazingly well.
Can't wait for things to start going for you in the right direction. good for you.
I am rooting for you!:You-Rock:
bizi

I think you are doing great! Hope your husband starts to feel better.
bobby

Kay,
Some thoughts that might be relevant or not:
Dress and talk and make eye contact (to an appropriate degree) as if you are 100 percent on top of your life.
(And of course that you are mindful about the issue at hand)

This sounds horrible but I think that someone else more vulnersble
will get some focus and that you can keep the focus off you.
They have a limited number of people to deal with and to "check off."
They will not give a lot of attention to everyone.
And some people may want or require more attention.

Keep reminding yourself of your 1 2 3 above.
Also maybe have an '"elevator speech" well prepared ahead of time about whatever they are going to hear from you:
(I am doing the program, I am . . . . My husband is supportive. . . Time has given me reflection. . .
Say it enough times ahead of time and when you get there they will believe it and move on to someone else more interesting.


If I am off, I apologize.

( sometimes I imagine myself as a world class athelete with a major support team behind me --- nutritionist, therapist, massage therapist, yogi, acupuncturist. coach, trainer, hypnotist for visualizing success, personal assistant, supportive teammates. . . )
---->> It helps me fake things and a huge amount of my energy outside the house is spent in being normal.
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I got rambly. Anyway, I feel that you know what you can handle
And the fact that you signed up for this means that you expect to be able to handle it.

Much good luck to you.

M