[bizi]

Hibachi grills are fun! and usually the food is good albeit salty.

What would you like for your birthday meal?
I will " make" it for you.
bizi

[OhKay]

I usually order pizza.

So, I decided I'm going to make an admission…

My mind **** has failed me and I'm still having issues with heightened anxiety. My intrusive thoughts are particularly concerning. I'm taking more klonopin. It's been a long time since I've taken this much klonopin. It's not effective for the OCD symptoms, which is no surprise to me, but at least it's helpful for the GAD.

I see my pdoc Wednesday, but I almost took an extra 50mg of seroquel last night because of the intrusive thoughts. That is probably what she is going to recommend, but I decided to hold off because I'm not in danger, just disturbed, and it's not a mood issue. No, I'm not suicidal.

That 50mg will put me at the max dose of 800mg of seroquel and I don't like the idea of that, but oh well. I hope that taking it at night is effective and I don't have to risk any further am sedation. Sometimes seroquel doesn't carry over well into the am for certain symptoms, which is exactly why I have to take some in the am now.

If I can't have it totally my way, I'll settle for it just working, period. I don't want to have to add another med. I do see the eventuality of that though because these symptoms continue to break through.

[bizi]

I am sorry for the intrusive thoughts.
Glad that you see her wednesday. Tell her everything.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[bizi]

(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[Mari]

Kay,

Sorry to hear that you are going through that.

I hope that the doc can help you.


M

[OhKay]

Thank you ladies

It's a real **** birthday...

My husband went to pay the bills when he got home and found our checking account was drained. We looked online and there were just tons of $200 ATM hits today. They left us with just under $300 in the account (not nearly enough to pay the bills).

We didn't know who's card it was- his or mine. While I was on the phone with customer service, the bank's fraud department called my husband's cell phone. Apparently it was his card info that was stolen and the cash was being withdrawn in D.C. (we live 20 min from Boston). I guess there were smaller purchases made with the credit card feature that the fraud department can see, but we aren't able to view them online yet. Hopefully we don't lose more money due to that.

The card is cancelled, and the fraud report filed, but we have no idea when we'll get the money back, or if we'll get it all back.

My husband had to transfer more money from savings to pay the bills, but of course it's hard to do that when the Internet is down AGAIN.

I don't know if I can go grocery shopping or not tomorrow...

[mymorgy]

i am so sorry. what a nightmare

[bizi]

when this happened to us the banker said it happened everyday.
they returned all of our money...not sure how timely that happened but they will return it all.
(((((HUGS)))))
I am so sorry that this happened to you.
bizi

[Mari]

Frustrating!
'So sorry to hear that, Kay.
I hope that they recover the money.



M

[OhKay]

I'm sorry you had to go through this too, Bizi
I know your husband's identity was stolen Mari, and that's a hell of a lot worse

Whoever did this is a special kind of asshole because after the first withdrawal I'm sure they saw our available balance and knew they were stealing from people without much money, and they did it anyway

My husband ended up filing two fraud reports to be safe. One for the cash withdrawals and one for the credit card transactions. For some reason, he is supposed to call customer service back today to verify the fraud reports using the claim numbers. He wants me to do it, and I will try, but I think they will tell me they have to hear from him. He requested his card be cancelled and had it verified. His new card is on its way.

He got another call because he went online, transferred that money from savings to checking, and paid a bunch of bills. They wanted to verify that it was him.

He didn't have a card with a chip, but that doesn't matter because most of the retailers in our area don't have chip readers yet. He's not going to use his debit card at all anymore except to withdraw money, and he's only using bank ATM's. He hasn't put any restrictions on my use yet though.

I almost withdrew money from the ATM yesterday to get a 20 to put on the laundry card, but had a 10 on me and decided that would do. Had I used the ATM and seen less than $300 in the account, I would have gone absolutely nuts. I have no access to our online account and my husband was unreachable where he was working yesterday… I'm very happy I decided against using the ATM for that reason.
My husband was beside himself. He wasn't exactly calm, but he didn't totally flip out or start throwing things like I would expect. I was proud of him for how he handled the situation, and told him so. I also thanked him for it because I don't think I would have handled his temper well.

There was a little levity… he said he felt bad for me for having to cook on my birthday until he tasted the chicken pie. It did turn out particularly good. He had offered me my usual pizza, but that was before we found out about our money situation.

I had already taken 2.5mg out of my allowed 3mg of klonopin a day come bedtime, and the 700 mg of seroquel I take is pretty sedating, but I took the other 1/2mg to knock myself the **** out. I was ready to have the day over with. I didn't need want to risk any anxiety causing insomnia.

Since I don't have access to the online account, I'll have to call, check our balance, and deduct the amount of outstanding bill payments before I decide if I can go grocery shopping or not. I don't know if those c/c purchases will be deducted from our account, too.


My father-in-law didn't wish me happy birthday yesterday. I suppose he's ****** at me for telling him why we would not be seeing him on our anniversary. One of my aunts wished me a happy 4th of July, but no birthday text. Also none from my brother or cousin. My father called, my sister texted me, and my other aunt texted and sent a beautiful card. Both my mother-in-law and my husband's step father texted me too, which was a nice surprise given the messy family situation.

It's a new day. Hopefully a much better one. Thank you for "listening."