[OhKay]

To change from taking 50mg am/750 pm of seroquel to 100mg am/700mg pm, I took the extra 50mg yesterday so I wouldn't be skipping a dose. I had already taken 1.5mg of klonopin for the anxiety attack, so it knocked me out and I slept for 4 hours.

Now I'm on schedule.

I woke up with anxiety as usual this morning. The 50mg of seroquel I took this morning was not effective in calming my anxiety by itself (which is surprising), so I took 1/2mg of klonopin. I am experiencing some sedation even though I still feel anxious.
I'm going to give it another day or two before I go running back to my pdoc's office, but I'm starting to wonder if this is really just anxiety. I have a habit of confusing mild hypomania and high anxiety, but I'm not picking up on any other hypo sx, and if it's mild hypomania the extra 50mg of seroquel should have taken care of that, too. I'm going to have to take stock of my recent behavior to see if anything pops.

We got the affidavit yesterday and my husband checked it, filled it out, and signed it. I was going to have one of the bank branches fax it to them, but there is no fax number on the letter, and that makes me nervous. I'm trying to decide if I should call customer service to ask for the right fax number or just send it overnight mail. I'll probably err on the side of caution and make a trip to the post office.

I have to do some food shopping today, but will only pick up a few things because we are hurting financially. I wish I could put it off until I get my SSDI check tomorrow, but there are some things we need now. What a PITA.

Unfortunately the post office and grocery store are going to have to wait because I need to sleep this off before I can drive anywhere…. if I can even drive at all today. My husband may have to drive me when he gets home from work whether he likes it or not.

[bizi]

Kay this is a lot of stress for you.
I am sorry.
I wish we did not have to be so hyper vigilant about our bipolar, but somebody does right?
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[Mari]

Kay,

Keep erring on the side of caution. Things are going to work out.
But on the off-chance that they do not, you will want paperwork
in case you have to refer to records of the steps you took.

Good luck through all this.

M

[OhKay]

$22 to mail the affidavit overnight guaranteed… wow. More money to get our money. I'll check the delivery confirmation today and call tomorrow to check on the status of our claim. I made copies of the affidavit before the ink was dry, so if anything happens we will be covered.


I was more alert after a 2hr nap yesterday, and felt comfortable enough to drive and get my errands out of the way. I just don't know if I can/want to have to take a 2hr nap every morning to sleep off the sedation of that extra 50mg of seroquel until my body adjusts to it. History shows I will adjust to it, but I don't know how long it will take, and I didn't see any benefit from it anxiety-wise yesterday. I've only taken 50/100mg so far this morning until I decide what I'm going to do… am or pm? I'm leaning towards taking it at night again.

As far as possible hypo sx, I've had racing thoughts that I've attributed to the anxiety, and I've been irritable. If I am having an episode it would be a mixed mood. Thinking about it, I think that's probably what's been going on. The PTSD symptoms hit me pretty hard during agitated mania, and I've had thoughts in the past that I could be mistaking for the intrusive thoughts I've been having recently. The seroquel increase has helped, but it's obviously not enough. I'm going to call my pdoc's office to get an appointment for Friday. She will probably increase the gabapentin.

We didn't get to see my father-in-law again before he left for Florida and he has been texting me constantly about the situation and being a real ***hole about it. He's really been an ***hole the entire time he's been up here. I'm tired of his ******** and guilt trips. I had to tell him twice I didn't want to talk about it anymore. If he brings it up again, I'm not going to respond to any more of his texts. It's exhausting.

[bizi]

mixed moods are hard to manage.....
(((((HUGS)))))
sorry, wish this were easier for you.
bizi

[OhKay]

Yeah… and mixed mood is my danger zone, too. I'm lucky I'm not manic…

I was hospitalized for full blown agitated mania (which is a mixed mood) this time last year, but it was preceded by a significant episode of euphoric hypomania, and it was a med (Latuda) that put me over the edge.

[Dmom3005]

Personally glad you can figure these things out.

Donna

[OhKay]

I forgot to mention something very important: Yesterday I was officially 1 year sober

I felt better yesterday as far as what has been feeling like high anxiety, but I decided to switch back to taking that 50mg at night, which meant skipping one 50mg dose, and am not doing well this morning. So, I guess I'm going to have to go back to taking it in the am and just suck it up until my body adjusts to it. I took the 50mg this morning so it will be "extra" rather than missing a dose again. I see a nap sometime in the very near future.

The last time I had to adjust to taking 100mg of seroquel during the day, I was not driving and was pretty much home bound. At least I know I will do better today than Tuesday because I have only taken 1/2mg of klonopin today vs. 1.5mg the other day because of the anxiety attack.

At this point I know I'm having an episode.. I should have picked up on it weeks ago because I've never had all of my anxiety disorders flare up to that degree all at once in the absence of an episode. I guess it's something to learn from. I was just so focused on handling it on my own.

Instead of making an appointment, I called my pdoc this morning and left a message. I know what she's going to tell me, but it's still important to call to let her know what's going on, and I should get her input before I treat myself because there's the possibility she will recommend something different than she has in the past.

I planned on doing laundry this morning, but I'll be too sleepy to finish it. I have one errand to run, but it can wait until the afternoon.
I'll call the bank's customer service department after breakfast, then go back to bed.