i have no idea where my tax information is. my memory is a blank. another crash. I got practically everything from the internet and I am sure I din't owe anymoney. I am going to have it done this year which might cost 250-money keeps on flowing away. i just feel so unhappy and helpless and out of control and fat., I don;t knoow what i am going t say to the doctor tomorrow when i call him. I am still spending but don't feel as compulsive. I don;t think i am going to buy anymore rayon pants. it is sort of nauseating. no more bags or bag cleaners. buy time for my new cell phone when it comes and robert is available. I wish i could tell cecilia not to buy me any more tiramisu. it is so fattening.
abby put on a show for me tonight with little stuffed toys. I petted pudge for almost a haalf an hour. she let me
i wish i could cry,. i feel so defeated.
it has been bothering me that my nephews have made no attempt for me to meet their children. I expected it
i wonder if the reduction of the antidepressantss for the mania is beginning to bring back the depression