i don;t know if I understand. I think this is masking an incredible sadness. I feel so awful and alone. the spending hides it. if i can;t spend right now i just tunnel into darkness.

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bizi

I think that's how a lot of people with eating disorders and spending problems feel. I'm so sorry you feel like that Bobby. I wish things were different

I am sorry that you are going through this.


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last night i went out and bought a big cupcaake with a lot of frosting. I weight almost two pounds more. It was weird but the korean woman who owns the store and who is never friendly kept on telling me how wonderful I looked. she is never friendly. she is beautiful. at lunch jack told me that he is losing sleep over me and how well i looked
I decided i am going to keep spending and just hope I don;t see anything i want. I saw anothe r crocodile bag but didn't bid on it. I saw a couple of pair of pants but they were over 10 dollars. I have a rule now that they can;;t be over 10 dollars. this wont be solving the problem but at least it is something. I got my money back on another bag and got to keep the bag. It was misrepresented.
I am drinking coffee right now even though i am supposed to fast before the doctors. I just cut mats off of pudge. I was scared i would cut her. off to look at the pants sigh
bobby
thank you
saw two but over 10 dollars

I am glad that you put a limit on your spending. This shows some restraint. which is a start.
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bizi

I agree with Bizi... the spending limit is good. Even in that ballpark is good because if you break your rule, hopefully you're not spending too much more.

I love that you are getting lots of compliments lately, and even have a man losing sleep over you!!!

I hope you enjoyed the cupcake

i didn't buy two pairs soldtogether , the price was great but i refrained and was happy i showed restraont. i chaanged two passwords aafter finding out i culd use the shift key for capitals, i still ordered a wireless keyboard