Really depressed and freaked out.

Based on emails from Work Buddy, I see that I remember nothing from the one hour workshop.
I asked him a couple of questions and he sent me a link but I have
NO IDEA what he is even talking about.
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So VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY depressed.
I was stressed the whole time around Mom and Dad -- they are not in
any way comforting -- not even comfortable with themselves.


I am still stressed.


And not sleeping right -- worse than usual it seems.

Do not understand how I can start back to work.


M

I am so sorry this is happening to you. Part of it has to do with the holidays. they exaggerate all our feelings. Your parents exaggerate them more. It is like they rub it in. Your mother and father sound precious in their own way but why did God make them them parents This is their form of nurturing but they have it backwards. You are still taking care of them especially now with the pressure
of the holidays. We should get together and hug each other and not say anything and just feel the spirit of the universe be the big hugger (you don't know the word I almost wrote(
at least new years is over and it won;t be for another year that you have to watch over your parents in person.

I wish it were easier for you. keep at it each day.
i hear your struggle.
I am glad that work buddy helps you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Sending good thoughts Mari.

Donna

It's not like that. He simply needed me to test the software thing.

He recognized by my questions that (1) the Trainer did not do as he requested from the company and that (2) I do not understand enough.



I took a late nap today.

Right now all I want to do is cry.

Of course the crying is making things worse.

M

Thank you, Bobby.

They really suck.


M

I feel o.k. today.


I slept a lot and I am taking it easy.


I have no idea why occasionally I feel less sucky.

Nothing is different except I feel cold even with the heater on.


M

I am glad that you are taking it easy.
I am sorry I misunderstood.
Hope this weekend allows you to get continued rest that you need. Hubbys classes start next wednesday, earlier this year for some reason.
bizi

It's chaotic that the semester calendar changes from semester to semester
and year to year.

It would be helpful if we were comfortable about what the F is going on.


M

Cleaning lady came over yesterday and helped clean up my office.
(We had moved things out of the living room into the office to make the house look o.k. when my parents were coming.)

Then we went clothes shopping and to the health food store and picked up
Klonopin at the CVS.


I bought two pairs of pants and a bunch of tops.

I am considering buying a pair of shoes from a specialty store (people with feet with special needs) because I like the pair I bought about 4 months ago
and the show store people could probably find another pair that works so I am not wearing the same pair all the time.

. . . it depends on when I have time and whether I talk myself out of spending
money.

I was up all night.


I want to go to bed now.


Take care.


M