[Mari]

Bizi,


Canoeing and birds and such a lovely time of year without too much heat.


M

[OhKay]

Were you able to have a good time at the NAMI pot luck despite your anxiety?

It sounds like your canoe trip was wonderful
I'm jealous of your beautiful weather!!!

It's great that Jeff was able to get your hot water heater up and running so you weren't without hot water for too long.

[mymorgy]

wow about the wild life! How beautiful!

[bizi]

Thanks
It was beautiful, gently meandering between the cypress trees, carefully avoiding peat moss as it hangs from above.
There were not any bugs or mosquitoes which was a bonus!
The temperature was perfect 75 degrees. Pretty blue sky.

I woke up with a cough, it started as a dry itchy throat yesterday, I started taking zyrtek and will continue today and as long as I have symptoms.
I am skipping my first client of the day and will make her up later this week.
I just don't feel like hurrying up to get ready...I need more coffee!
I have a left over dish from hub city diner yesterday morning/noon scrambler:
eggs, veggies(onions, mushrooms and peppers and brocolli), and sausage and cheese. I took half home because it was a lot of food.

Yesterdays pot luck was nice...I dealt with my social anxiety issues by leaving right after the door prizes were called out. I ended up getting some pretty red flowers(little sparkly balls that will be cut apart to use as filler for our little tree. I kind of felt bad for not staying and helping clean up....but I wanted to get out of there. I avoided picking! The bandaids did the trick.

Christmas is around the corner....I am not looking forward to the trip.
I am very limited on clothes that fit....I can't imagine dressing up for new years...sigh
I am obese....
sigh

anyway. I don't want to end on a negative note...
Picked out a new coffee, the other one was too light and did not have much flavor, it was marked incorrectly so I brought back the bag of beans to exchange them at whole foods.
I picked out an organic dark roast french roasted. It is much better!
Maybe I can do some paper work this morning that I have been avoiding.
Billing...
ok need another cup of coffee.
Have a great day to all who follow.
bizi
bizi

[bizi]

I sewed a hole in my sweater!
Something domestic!
my accomplishment for the day!
bizi

[bizi]

lets just say that I am a difficult patient.
I drink and my pdoc may refuse to continue seeing me tomorrow when I see her again after she had her staff tell me 3 times to not drink any alcohol.
I drank.
now I must lie to her.

I am a nurse and read up on things and make suggestions all of the time about meds to try etc.
I suggested abilify and seroquel, abilify was not good for me.

I increase my meds then tell her about it.
She is not happy with me.
I want a new pdoc, but have yet to come up with an alternative one.
Although I am not looking that hard.

I have told my therapist about wanting a new set of eyes....she did not like the idea of me seeing a psychologist who has prescriptive abilities.

She would rather I see a nurse practitioner, psych nurse.

I have seen Dr.O for 15 years so that is a long time.
Not sure how it is going to go tomorrow....
bizi __________________

[Mari]

Maybe ask your therapist to help you pick out a nurse practitioner.
Use part of your appt, to pick someone good for you.

In my state, I can go the the web site of the licensing board and find a few things about the doc/therapist/whomever.



M

[bizi]

I saw my pdoc this evening at 4;45pm.
She was very nice and concerned,
she truly wanted to hear about my struggles, intimacy with jeff, showering, self image, loss of self/identity when I told her about my hip and arthritis and my weight....and social anxiety issues.
she spent over a half an hour with me.
She did not give me too much grief about the drinking like I thought she would so was grateful for that. She was surprised that naltrexone was not really helping. She really does not want to keep me on zyprexa because of weight gain. I want to stay on it to see if it helps with my mood, I don't think I am hypomanic now.
Tonight I Had good self control, did several hours of paper work that I had been avoiding.
I won't see her until the end of january.
She documented me mild depression. She said she was afraid to put me on an antidepresant, and I said no agreeing with her afraid of mania.
It was a really good visit.
bizi


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[bizi]

Ate a good meal last night. Salmon and veggies.
AF
snacked on a bag of light pop corn while doing paper work
up at 6am and packed a bag,
I am going to the gym!
bizi
Life is good!
and it is a start.
bizi

[OhKay]

I'm so glad that your pdoc took the time to listen to you.

The Zyprexa may be helping with your depression. It can work both ways. In low doses, it can be used with some meds as an adjunct for depression. Before you started taking it, you were very overwhelmed and seemed much more depressed
I think you made a good decision to stay on it for now.

I'm happy to hear that you are going to the gym