I'm so sorry you feel like you have no life, Bobby. I'm in the same boat, and it just stinks :hug::hug::hug:

I'm really glad that the Benadryl helped. I think this is going to be a really bad allergy season.

I'm sorry that you had a disagreement with Marci. I don't think you were out of line in asking for her to vacuum (which she should be doing), or asking her to do a better job sweeping if she won't. I hope you don't feel badly about it, and that she just lets it go :hug:

I can't believe you have to pay a whole dollar more for the Halo Top ice cream! It must be the NYC mark up! I tried Corey's peanut butter cup flavor, and it was pretty good. It didn't have chunks of peanut butter cups like you would expect tho. It's funny... the "mocha chips" in my chocolate mocha chip were very small, which I actually liked, but WHITE, which I found to be really odd.

it is a 1.50 more. right now that isn't stopping me . I just ordered blueberry green tea. it is delicious.
you feel as if you have no life too? I think a lot about God. Most people don't interest me. I am sure I don't interest most people. Have you ever cancelled doctor's appts because you just want to be alone with your kitty cats? It is too much stress to go out? I grew up with a raging alcoholic. He didn't need to drink much before he got drunk. too bad you can't video tape corey and show him what he is like. don't let him use you as an excuse.I asked my father years later when he hardly drank why he did it and he said it felt good. I was shocked.
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bobby

I feel like a zombie. I am totally out of control. I am going to try to walk in the hall. I haven't done that in so long. My balance is so off. I have to stop watching the stock market. two of the stocks i wanted to buy but was to scared are doing so well. I am trying to stop buying which is taking away a high I don't remember when I was last out. I am waiting to get some cookies in the mail. I will never lose weight. I am almost finished with the book I started yesterday.

In the past, when Corey has been drinking heavily like this, I have asked him if anxiety about my medical problems were part of the reason, and he's always said yes, but he has other reasons, but he doesn't want to talk about anything. This time I'm not going to bring it up or ask because he's showing absolutely no concern for me, and it seems like he's really having a grand old time.

Years ago, I would cancel appointments because I wanted to stay in the comfort of my own home, and just couldn't make myself go out. Sometimes it's hard to get myself going and get myself out the door now (for any number of reasons), but I haven't missed any appointments for that reason in a long time.


I'm sorry you are feeling like a zombie, Bobby :hug::hug::hug:
Do you feel like you are coming down from the hypomania now?

I'm glad that you are going to try walking in the hall. Could you call one of your friends to ask them to go out for a coffee with you? It sounds like your mind and body could benefit from a little trip out soon :hug::hug::hug:

I can't believe you are almost finished that book in a day! It must be a good one!

now I only go out with stella after she plays tennis and that is rarely and I can only walk two blocks. i did some leg exercises yesterday. i have come down. i keep on thinking about God.

I'm sorry you have come down, Bobby. I wish that your good mood had lasted longer :hug::hug::hug:

I hope that when you think of God right now you are finding some comfort :hug:

How are you doing, Bobby?

I tried the Breyer's Delights Mint Chip ice cream (310 calories/pint) and it was very good.

I am really down. My birthday is next week which is making it worse. I have been having morbid thoughts. I have been neglecting abby so she has been acting like a daredevil and I have been feeling guilty. I am sorry you are feeling so miserable. Hopefully it will pass soon.
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bobby

Bobby,

I hope that your mood improves.


M

right now I am reading two books and fixed my phone and computer yesterday