I saw the results of the blood work I just had done, and my kidney panel was slightly worse than when the surgeon had it drawn, but that could be due to different laboratory ranges. My random blood sugars have been trending high. The high side of the normal range is 100, and it was 108 in July and was 116 this time. I need to stop eating so much s-. Someone probably should draw an A1c. I'm probably pre-diabetic.

No phone call about scheduling the surgery yesterday.

Corey got super drunk (12pk) AGAIN and started up about the neighbors AGAIN despite my repeated protests. I'm very angry with him. I asked him if he cared at all about my mental health, but there is absolutely no reasoning with him when he is that drunk :mad::mad::mad:

I'm afraid because of the things he is saying outside that he may get jumped in the parking lot, or someone may come down and kick his ***. And his inability to control himself is obviously very stressful for me, and raises my anxiety.
There will be nobody here to reign him in when I'm in the hospital, and I know he will deal with me absence by getting drunk, and God only knows what kind of trouble he will get himself into.

They are definitely smoking something other than pot up there on the deck tho. I haven't smelled pot up there in a while, and Ellen (who was open about being addicted to smoking cocaine for 20yrs) started choking really hard for a couple of minutes on whatever it was, and Corey said he was going to "call the cops about drugs," but we have no proof! I made him go inside, and when we went back out to smoke cigarettes again, they had sprayed bug spray or some other chemical to cover up the odor. I can still smell/taste it this morning. It's probably worse because it's raining now.

I saw my next door neighbor, Mary, yesterday. She saw more of what happened on Saturday night when Ellen had the confrontation with the woman in the car in the driveway. I guess 2 women got out of the car, climbed the fire stairs, and got into a physical fight with Ellen and someone else was up there. Mary is considering calling the office. I hope she does. I really hope she does.

My anxiety is highest in the morning, and it is really high today. I made the mistake of not taking the extra 1/2mg of Klonopin right away, so I don't know if it will help yet, but I think it will...

I think I need to call my pdoc about all of this because I need to stay stable, so something really needs to be done to control my anxiety better...

This morning I've thought about how much time and energy I've spent on posting this BS. Obviously it's a mess, and it's too much for me to deal with.

I don't know if my pdoc is in the office today, but I left her a message.
I wrote down everything I wanted to say because I'm anxious, and didn't want to forget anything.

I briefly explained the situation, asked if I could increase the gabapentin to 800mg, and asked for a script for Klonopin.

I also told her that my anxiety is now bordering on agitation and I am not able to nap any more lately.

She may want to see me in the office.

This situation may prevent me from being able to have surgery soon.

Kay

I sure hope it doesn't make you have to delay the surgery.

That is really unfortunate if that happens.
Hoping like you the neighbor calls the office and explains what she
saw. I would think they need to know that. Even if its just an
explanation because she is worried about someone getting hurt.

I would explain to her that they can get seriously hurt climbing the
fire escape, or at least I think so.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

Oh Kay, what a mess of your neighbors. sorry for the extra stress of corey.
you do't need this.
drugs are awful...you don't have any proof though like you said.
sigh
thinking of you today.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

My pdoc did okay the increase in gabapentin, and called more for Klonopin in for me. I can pick those with the 2 other scripts I need today.

I took mag. citrate last night and increased the dose of gaapentin. I got up several times to go to the BR, but slept in between, and didn't get out of bed until 9:30... 3 hours longer than normal. I needed the sleep. I'm not particularly anxious this morning, but that could be from the sedation. I only took 1mg of Klonopin this morning.
I am sedated from the med increase, and I'm very dehydrated from the mag. citrate, so I'm really not feeling well this morning. I'm sipping on Gatorade, so hopefully that will help.

I texted Corey yesterday and asked him not to bring any beer home, and he didn't. When he got home, I told him I needed to increase my meds, and he was a big reason why. I told him he was drinking too much, being belligerent, inflaming the situation, and I couldn't handle it. He acknowledged the fact that he was drinking too much, but didn't seem to take any responsibility for the rest, and is justifying his behavior because of the neighbors...
I've decided that the next time he gets that drunk, I'm packing a bag and staying in a hotel for the night because I'm not dealing with his s- cuz I can't right now.

The neighbors were quiet as mice last night. I hope that continues throughout the weekend. If they get out of control again, I WILL call the cops, and I WILL tell them there are probably drugs up there.

I hope everyone behaves themselves this weekend because I JUST NEED A F'ING BREAK!!!

wow am i impressed!

Thank you Bobby :hug:
Love you (((HUGS)))

love you too!

I just realized why my kidney function is tanking... it's the Vraylar (atypical antipsychotic for manic/mixed episodes). There is a warning in the section for medical professionals not to give it to patients with severe kidney impairment (mine isn't really "severe")...

It can also increase your blood sugar, which could explain the high blood sugars.

I hope they don't want to d/c it prior to surgery. My pdoc wants me to stay on it until after surgery so I will remain stable...

I also read that it can cause agitation. Maybe that is part of the reason why I've been having a hard time with agitation?

Kay,

'Lots of stuff going on with the neighbors and Cory and your meds and the surgery. You do well keeping things together.