Nice anniversary! Good luck with the air conditioning.


M

I had a meltdown yesterday.

We went to do laundry, which is always a great time. And I was exhausted, in pain, not feeling well... and HOT.
This weekend Corey has been dragging a- so we have been going out when it's hotter out, and I should be/need to be napping. Being overtired didn't help matters.

I started folding our mountain of laundry while Corey was trying to recharge the AC (I had to buy another can earlier cuz he f- ed up and discharged the contents of the other one on the pavement). When he came in and told me he read the directions this time around, but it still didn't work, and we would have to bring the car in to be repaired, I just lost my f-ing s-...

About all I could manage to communicate were growls and strings of curse words, with the exception of telling him not to speak another f-ing word about the f-ing AC to me again. Even tho I told the KING of meltdowns I wasn't mad at him, he freaked out because he "isn't used to seeing (me) like that". I think with everything I have been going through, I WAS DUE. It was just that AC problem that put me over the top.

There are a lot of rational reasons why I had the meltdown (But I wasn't exactly being rational at the time). I guess this is the abbreviated list:
#1 MONEY: the repair and a $250 copay for tomorrow's MRI
#2 Not knowing when I could bring it in cuz of a million appt's
#3 Having to drive around in the high 80's all week w/o AC until I can get it fixed
#4 Constant health problems, tests, and appointments, and still feeling shitty
#5 Having high anxiety and just being overwhelmed in general

I don't have an appointment today because there was an issue with my insurance company approving my Tysabri (MS med) infusion that I was supposed to have at 10. The new appointment they scheduled is unacceptable, so I will have to reschedule it.

After dinner, I took a look at the rest of my appointments. My MRI is at 7:40am tomorrow, and I just have a manicure on Wednesday, which could be easily rescheduled. I will call the auto shop to ask if I drop the car off around 9 tomorrow morning they can have it fixed by the end of business Wednesday cuz I have a PT appointment at 9am Thursday morning that I don't want to miss. That's the only way I can see how I can swing it. Next week is lousy with appointments, too.

My anxiety is still REALLY HIGH. I have to go out to run two short errands, so I've only taken 1 1/4mg of Klonopin, but will take more when I get home. I have to shower so I can get going.

You deserved to have a melt down!!!!!!!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

you definitely need a break. this is way too much.
love and big hugs.

good luck with your MRI.
((((HUGS))))
bizi
I am sorry, I am trying to keep up...
what are they checking you for again?

I just got a call back from the mechanic, and it will cost f-ing $950 to fix the f-ing AC in my car!!! The compressor is gone, and they won't have the part in until Friday.

I'm f- freaking out... $950. $950. $950...

They won't have the part until Friday, but my car is drivable, so I can pick it up anytime now, but I need a ride, and would rather not pay more money for a cab, but Corey doesn't know when he will be home. I'm waiting for him to call me when he has a better idea (GOD knows when), but I may just call a cab anyway to put the issue at rest for the day so it's not hanging over my head driving me batty.

I have an appointment with my neurologist on Friday, so I can't bring the car in until around 11am. I guess the job will take about 3hrs, so I won't be waiting, and will have to deal with cab rides again... MORE MONEY... UGH.

When my dad called me on my birthday, he asked for my address because he said he wanted to "send (me) something." I hope it's money.



I had the MRI early this morning.
My PCP wanted to check for possible neurological reasons for my dizziness and lightheadedness in particular. I had a relapse of my MS several weeks (months ago now) before the onset of those symptoms (and others), so my neurologist will be interested in taking a look at it, too.

I have software on my old computer that allowed me to look at MRI images, but it's really outdated, and I can't find a download for it that's more current and fREE, and it's between $600 and almost $3K to buy now. Imaging has finally advanced to the point where I can't see s- now, which is very disappointing.

I should be able to at least view the radiologist's report within 3 days, but I'll see the neurologist the same day, so...


FUN DAY so far.

I hope it is money too! why couldn't have happened in the winter time.

I had to fix my ac too. last month and it cost me about what it cost you although I think he said it was the condenser. What ever that is, am afraid there is something wrong still, It is acting fine and we did fine on our trip to IN.
I am sorry for the added taxi trips. Uber an option?
bizi

Hi, Kay.

My car a/c is out now too.
Whatever they did the last time did not work.

Good luck with the MRI results.


M

Sending some hugs.

Hoping you get a break soon.

Donna