Bizi, my PCP referred me to a general surgeon for a possible biopsy of one or more of the swollen lymph nodes. Even tho they are wide-spread, I doubt he will think one is warranted because they're really not that big. The appointment is on August 14th. If my lymph nodes are still swollen, I will go, but I consider it a waste of my time.


I have to find a way to get through grocery shopping today, but I've yet to shower or put my list together :o

My system of waiting until I feel like I'll be okay enough to get in the shower/go out (unless I absolutely have to) isn't working out well for me right now because if I go out later in the day, the heat and humidity are oppressive. I can't win.
I think I may be better off going out earlier in the day because being out in the heat may be just as dangerous as not waiting to go out.

I have to take mag. citrate tonight. I can't put it off any longer. I know how nauseous it will make me, and I know it will probably make me throw up, but I have to do it. I will have to drink a bottle of Gatorade this evening, and another one tomorrow morning, so I don't get dehydrated and pass out :(

I think I am depressed, or am heading in that direction. I'm always in pain, I'm always exhausted, and I feel miserable most of the time, so my quality of life right now is pretty f- poor. I've been struggling with the lightheadedness and dizziness for months now, and nobody can tell me why, never mind treat me for it, so I'm starting to feel hopeless/helpless. I have no idea what to make of the swollen lymph nodes. I don't know if they're even related to my other sx. And all of this s- is standing in the way of me getting the colorectal surgery I need in order to help me with my BR struggles, which are a HUGE issue for me.

There is a problem if I am having a mood shift tho... I really don't think making any med increases or tacking on any new meds right now is a good idea. I don't think if I could tolerate any sedation or side effects, even if they were temporary. I see my pdoc on the 1st...

sending huge hugs and prayers
love
bobby

oh kay, am sorry for your mood shift....
keep posting, know that we love you.

Is there any way to make the mag citrate more tolerable???
are there different flavors?
could you mix it with juice?
I again I am sorry you are suffering.
Be safe and promise you won't hurt yourself.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Nobody said anything about hurting oneself

I am sorry that i said that...you said your mood was starting to shift.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Kay,

I hope that things start working better for you.


May your Saturday go well.


M

Thank you, ladies :grouphug:

A mood shift just means having an episode of hypo/mania or depression. That doesn't mean someone has/will have s/s thoughts, or that they will act on them if they do. But if I started to have those thoughts, I promise I would seek the proper help immediately because of my history (prior s/s attempt), and I would would make the necessary med changes regardless of the side effects.

I used to have some form of s/s ideation regularly for many years while I was on lithium, but never acted on them (I was off meds when I did). I haven't had that problem on Seroquel. My danger zone tends to be mania, dysphoric/agitated mania in particular.


There are different flavors of mag. citrate. The CVS brand grape and cherry are the best/most tolerable, but it's still mag. citrate, and you can't get rid of that disgusting taste no matter what you do because it's so over-powering. I can get it down straight up by drinking it cold with a straw. Even 2 bottles of it isn't a lot of liquid to drink, but for some reason, it's really filling.

Anyway, I chickened out and didn't take it last night, but I went to the BR on my own this morning. It's not nearly enough, but it's something.

Yesterday I checked my PCP's patient portal to see if there were any messages for me that I hadn't gotten an email notification about (which has been happening lately). There was one about the brain MRI I had done... apparently he doesn't understand how to read radiologists' reports for MS pts LOL! Anyway, he wanted to refer me to a MS clinic in Boston. I just wrote back that I had already discussed the MRI results with my current neurologist, and was happy with the care I was receiving. I would rather have no neurologist than go into Boston again (I didn't write that last part tho).

Thank you for your clarifying.
have a good weekend.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Also sounds like he forgot you have an neurologist that would read the
report for you and make the answers known.

The pcp I believe should have gotten the answers from him instead
of trying to send you to someone else.

Its just the fact he isn't listening or looking in your records to see
who all your doctors are. If he was he would have known.

To me it sounds like he has no idea what kind of doctor you need
to figure out what is wrong with you. Sounds like you need
an internist.

Donna :hug::grouphug: