thanks i will try it.
bobby

I am so anxious. I had a nightmare where I was all alone in the world and I had no money and no where to live. I realized my father and sister were dead.

Hugs!! It was only a dream. Hugs!

thank you so much. I am terrified about money and even though my nephews are very rich, none have offered to help and only one sends me emails of his sons and their trips. One of my few close friends helps me with my rent.
Since I was very young I was always terrified of not having enough money and being homeless. My bipolar helped me make bad choices like majoring in Latin in college and paying my way through graduate school where it was almost impossible to get a ph.d in psychology. and then not getting along with most of my bosses.
bobby

I have been bent out of shape. I told my friend Kathy that I was seeing suri's daughter. She immediately asked if she could come over. She doesn't know the daughter but she knew Suri from a very long time ago and gave her some singing lessons but when I told Kathy Suri had breast cancer 3 1/2 years ago she didn't ask for her number or email.Kathy wants me to give the daughter her phone number and email in case she wants to talk to her.

I understand the concern about money. I don't work, nor do I feel qualified for anything anymore (not to mention the stress of finding reference contacts. I've pretty much lost contact with anyone who could do that).

That being said, I just try to have faith that things will work out and be thankful for what I have now. And even when things look scary, I believe that I'll get help from somewhere. It's not easy, but it's all I've got!

what an incredible attitude -that is so very great!
Bobby

i slept about three hours last night. my stomach ache was worse than usual. it is okay now. my bipolar is really winning. I am still in rage about Kathy and I can't control it. I can't take it. I guess I will drop her as one of my oldest friends. I have very few friends left. I feel as if I am racing.

Hmm, I guess I was a bit confused by your last post on Kathy. I didn't realize you were that upset! I'm in no position to advise you on relationships though. I've cut ties for less.
Sorry you have a stomachache and sorry you didn't sleep. I should probably say this in my thread, lol, but I didn't sleep well either. Hubs is worried about something and kept me up half the night worrying about him. I hope things go well for him today and we both get some sleep tonight. <3

right now my anxiety is through the roof. my stomach is acting up