[bizi]

For Marysue,

They have done 2 plasma exchanges. she will have 5 total treatments. they take a long time to run...4-5 hours.
The second one worked and she is now out of ICU. It was like a miracle. Off the ventilator and moved....
So she is back on a cardiac floor and doing well.

This afternoon I finished my billing! wrote out 14 bills, and then I started my taxes, the mileage part,
almost 10k business miles. That is my biggest deduction.

I called the vet/boarding place and they suggested we medicate her with pain meds.
I agreed..... they will be giving her neurontin twice a day.
and I ran to the store to get some fancy feast that they are going to feed her.
Both these things we should have thought about before.
We gave her a can a while back and she loved it.
so I ran to super one and picked up 4 cans.
I told them that she hates to be picked up! and that she cries a lot any time you pick her up.
I met Matty the woman whom I spoke to about hattie, and cried to her about the situation.
She was very understanding and supportive.
I really believe that she is suffering so do they...Jeff wants to wait to put her down
when she stops eating and is listless.
sigh

At 6;20pm I went to the NAMI support group meeting and found out it started at 6 so walked in the middle of it.
They were forgiving. I had not been there in a while. some of the same people were there. Everyone was pretty good.
I talked the most.

Found out there is a drop in center on tuesday from 9-2pm,
I see Dr. Orazio in the morning but could go there for the noon meal they serve.$2 or just check it out.

Everything seems hard to do. It takes me a long time making decisions,
For dinner, I ate left overs from fridays lunch with melissa, chicken noodle and some greens left over from dinner last night
and some left over edamame which was still tasty!

Golly, I have to eat 500 calories before bed with the geodon!
I put rebel ice cream out to thaw a bit but it is too soon for that so I put it back into the freezer, will wait until 11pm.
Think I ate lunch at 1145am. close enough. I am going to have to learn to eat breakfast....grrrr

It takes me a while to compose these postings.
Then I share it on different sites, part of my addiction.
Of course, then check back later to see if some one has responded to my post.
This makes a week alcohol free, I feel my internet/phone addiction is worse.
I post on an addiction site and have started a new thread on internet addiction and have had little response.
If anyone knows of a support group for internet addictions let me know.

I had better sign off.
Thank you for reading!

bizi

[bizi]

thanks for your support!
At the Nami meeting I mentioned that I have addictions then listed them. not really much response. then again I only go seldomely and they meet 2 times a month is all. I see dr. orazio tomorrow morning, she wants to have jeff in on the call too so I told him about that.
just a quick check in need to go have lunch and take my meds.
love you guys,
bizi

[bizi]

thanks for your support!
At the NAMI meeting I mentioned that I have addictions then listed them. not really much response. then again
I only go seldomely and they meet 2 times a month is all. I see dr. orazio tomorrow morning, she wants to
have jeff in on the call too so I told him about that.
just a quick check in need to go have lunch and take my meds.
Marysue is my MIL and she is doing much better.
The cat hattie is the one at the boarding place and has cancer. Hoping the vet calls jeff today.
I am supposed to pick jeff up at the air port tomorrow night.
This afternoon I went to the VA office to talk about a claim for disability
when I got bacterial meningitis and had cognitive decline from it.
Jeff said I would have to get a lawyer to do that and it would be less money.
I am afraid of Dr. Orazio and afraid she will call the board of nurses on me!

heavy sigh
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Bizi
Why would she call the board of nurses on you? You have been being very careful with working. And I personally think if your that concerned you might want to take some more time off.

I sure hope I believe it's Hattie is doing as well as possible.
Just keep doing the best you can
Donna

[bizi]

I called the boarding place and they found the notes.
They gave her the pain med and she slept which is great!
And she loved the food!!!!
Spoke with Jeff. He spoke to the vet, Dr. Dusty at 6pm and
Jeff said he did not want to make that decision now.

I told him that I was not going to pick her up then,

did not want to bring her home.

It was just too hard on him.
sigh
bizi
going to pay a bill then do the rest of the paperwork that needs to get done.
8 days alcohol free, I don't need it!

[Dmom3005]

Bizi

Probably good not to pick her up yet. Maybe if he can take sometime he can make the decision and go Tell her goodbye. It might help him in the end that way.

How is his mom doing.

[Dmom3005]

Originally Posted by Dmom3005

Bizi

Probably good not to pick her up yet. Maybe if he can take sometime he can make the decision and go Tell her goodbye. It might help him in the end that way.

How is his mom doing.

By the way great on alcohol count, and no you don't need it

[bizi]

thank you donna,
marysue is very weak jeff helped feed her chicken soup and jello because she was shaky. But it was real food!
I am sure she enjoyed it.
I need to go to bed, have my routine that I need to do then bed by midnight. alarm set for 9am to be up and ready for dr. orazios appointment.
10;20 she may be late.
Think jeff is mad at me for asking the vet to call him......
did a little cleaning up the house needs a good cleaning.
Maybe I can do that after lunch. Jeff arrives home at 730pm I will go pick him up.
need to go get ready for bed.
bizi

[bizi]

got up after sleeping off and on got up 2 times to go pee.
Wearing the ear plugs still over slept the alarm...need to get ready for my pdoc appointment. I have to leave in half an hour.


Have really discovered that I have been selfish, childish.

And have not been considerate, especially of Jeff.

I am glad that I have therapy on thursday.
I need some adulting!

I was wrapped up in my addictions for the past 3 years, I neglected everything around the house. I tidyed up the house a bit.
Well sorry it is short, need to get ready.


sigh
love,

bizi _______

[mymorgy]

no you are not.
love
bobby