[GeeLuv]

Posted in the support thread but just for my record and if folks only see this, here we go again...

Ok, I think this might be the beginning of a hypomanic episode. Slept 2 hours maybe and have been up since. This sucks! And couldn't come at a worse time when no doctors or pdoc are seeing anyone right now. Any advice would be welcome. Thanks!

[mymorgy]

can you try drinking chamomille(sp) tea? can you listen to your favorite music?
can you do yoga or try to meditate? I also put the covers over my head. also bathing can be relaxing.
the best
bobby
also essential oils in diffuser like lavender or rose

[GeeLuv]

thank you for all of the suggestions, bobby! I will try some or maybe even all of those. Actually, I showered just now. I've got my blanket in the laundry going, but will use hubby's if I get sleepy...but i had to eat so now i might have to wait a bit before sleep anyway (again, if possible). someone else had suggested magnesium glycinate (well, they said biglycinate, but i'm wondering if that's a typo because I have glycinate). Going to try this. It used to help calm me after workouts but i stopped taking it regularly.

Ok, before I forget, so I apparently forgot my Clonazepam yesterday. Could've contributed to some of this, however, I've forgotten it before and I haven't lost sleep over it (metaphorically and physically speaking)...at least I think...maybe I did lose sleep, in which case, this again is just to prevent this mini crisis from escalating. I still feel different this time. I feel as I did over 2 years ago and not since, so I'm really thinking it's hypomania this time.

That little admission was a clip from the message I just sent my GP. So he'll now be aware of this too. umm...

oh yes! So, no, I didn't ever get back to sleep since my last post, but I did manage to relax. Oddly what helped me was thinking of sad things...but then I thought of comforting things. I was ruminating over exciting things before that and that was NOT working. Anyway, just thought I'd note that in case this happens again. Sigh! Oh, and I'll likely just be lurking today if I'm online much at all, fyi. Ok, thanks for reading and listening folks!

[Dmom3005]

Gee, you are going to work.through your things. It just takes time. Go by trying to take one thing at a time

[GeeLuv]

tried the lavendar/chamomille scented infuser (diffuser?) and was able to sleep an hour, check laundry, and then sleep another hour. I'm not sure how much I should allow myself to nap though because I need to be tired to sleep at night, right?
I also messaged my doctor and he wants to see me via an online visit on Friday about my moods. Send me good thoughts that I'm able to explain myself well enough and cover every question and concern I have these days. thanks!

[Dmom3005]

Good vibes coming to you. We are hear to help if we can. Just keep talking as much as you need

[GeeLuv]

Just a quick update

Well, last night I got more sleep, but it was still difficult. I woke up a few times and took a little while to settle back down again because of the racing obsessive thoughts. But still slept and dreamt and everything. So still noteworthy, but doing better.

Edit important for me to note and remember. I used the lav/cam diffuser last night AND took a magnesium glycinate tablet (not biglycinate as apparently there is a difference). Also, I slept from about 2am to 12:20pm. I do keep record of my sleep and wake times in my private journal, but I don't always take all of these notes, so hopefully I'll get better with that though, but it's here should I need it.

[GeeLuv]

So today I was feeling the euphoria again. It was a beautiful day! Nice and toasty in the porch room, but i was all dressed in my sweats, so I took my excitable walk outside and did my walk there today. (20minutes maybe. a little short, but i had to get to work)
Yeah, I was twirling my hair and basking in the sun and the memories of the pleasant night I had giggling with my hubby watching the movie the night before...

and all that ended now as I burnt the dinner veggies...they were still edible, but he was mad because I was online whilst cooking them and he keeps blaming it as a distraction and yelled "get off that internet"...so I might just have to do that if he persists...

sigh!

edit:
oh but wait! I'm starting to jot down writing ideas for this writing challenge I'm doing next month. there's a group that I chat with for support and encouragement during the process and I'm in charge of it (well, the heavy lifting is done now, but I still like to be the primary cheerleader). Anyhoo...just trying to think of things I can do offline. sigh! but writing hurts my hand and I can't possibly keep up with the thoughts in my head... I need a typewriter! lol

[GeeLuv]

i was just doing yoga and now I'm feeling this overwhelming feeling of wanting to cry. I don't even know that I'm sad, it's just welling up in my heart and head. :/ Maybe I am sad. Maybe I'm just tired. I'm not sleepy though, but physically a little tired. um...the stretching feels good though...i think maybe i'm sad that it can't last forever?? ...I'm also sad that I might have to cut back more of my internet time...but I don't even know where to begin, because I don't want to!!! *super sad tears

edit: I started documenting my hypomanic phase on Monday, but it's possible I was already starting it sooner (erm, except that Sunday I was really depressed-like...or but I just read that you could be depressed and still have energy...I was napping all day, but that's mostly because I just wanted to shut out the world...and I was feeling better last week and stuff)...I guess I'm just wondering if I'm still in it, and did I start it sooner, and/or if I'm dipping...guess it's a little early to tell since I could just be tired from the time of night.
Thanks!

[bizi]

hi G,
it is good to write stuff down. I am going to start a journal...have been taking notes in a calendar planner. I will document meals meds so that doesn't happen again, where I accidentally took double meds.
Good for you for writing challenge!
I hope you enjoy it!
we are here in this together!
((((HUGS)))
bizi