hope it helps
bobby

So I'm making an educated guess that the spicy beef burritos (the spice but also the gluten) are giving me stomachaches/setting off my IBS, but it's also probably because of stress (therapy/therapist headache and all related to that, but also exciting stuff) and the fact that caffeine kept me up till 5am this morning! Yeah, and then sweating in the kitchen while being so blah...i am not currently in pain or sick, but there have been a few waves of it today. I really hope I can get a good night's sleep tonight!

Great! I was going to try for a short nap, but I might be hungry (?) No, I need to rest. Sigh! Zzzzz ;)

Oh boy. How stupid am I?! I ate a different wheat based bean burrito today and got sick. I mean, after the other day you 'd think I'd learn to take a bit of a break. Thing is, H got the wrong kind and I feel like i shouldn't waste them. Food is food in these times, right?! No, but I'm just lazy and didn't want to cook today. I mean, I didn't really want to eat my cooking today, but I still should have. I dunno! anyway, I'm still hungry as the burrito was less and i ate a small lunch too. trying to fill up on veggies and hummus, but I'm not sure if I can tell what's hunger and what is just stomahaches. Oh me oh my! lol

In a good mood though as I made my word count goal for today and i dunno, stuff! lol

Good luck with all that, GeeLuv, sounds really complicated. :) Lots of love to you!

great being in a good mood

and congratulations on getting your word count in.
bizi

Alright, so I'm pretty tired but going to try to give a bit of an update. So it turns out T can see me and re-schedule for me, so i get my Wednesday app instead of Thurs. Thats great, but she could have told me sooner and saved me a lot of headache. Also, I'm just struggling with what we are going to discuss and what I'm going to have to do after. I'm very scared! I'm sorry, but I won't go into details here, but we'll wishes would be appreciated.

Things have been pretty good at home. Still, deep down I'm sad because I feel like I can't be fully honest about my hopes and dreams and honest thoughts and feelings a lot of the time. I do start to share a bit. But like today, for instance...well, let's just say H made a not so funny joke at my expense. I mean to me, at least not in public. Still, if he were to do it in public, people might actually see how stupid he can be sometimes. Sigh!

Anyway, so something promising is happening for me, but it's too early to really talk about it. Still good news though! And I also met my word goal again tonight, so yay again!

WL, if you read this, I actually made it to see B&B again today. Not quite sure what the theme is this week, missed that part, but I kinda wish I could see the conti uation of this one. Ended on a cliffhanger...well, I mean, I guess they all do, maybe, but this was someone plotting something. I want to see what happened next! Hehe

Gee

Not sure what B&B is but I have watched bold and beautiful for years and they are all cliffhangers. But distressing. I'm glad you got your appointment make it a good one. I don't know what to say about the things at your expense except maybe either call him on them, Or turn it around were he gets something said or done not so nice too. If he says something just remind it's not nice having it happen.

Have a great week
Donna

B&B is Bold and the Beautiful, Donna. :D I only started watching it seriously like ?last year? Or maybe even just this year. Can't remember!

Well, I did it again. Feeling sick again. Could be the beef (still had some leftover) or the tortilla flour. Thing is, H wanted to finish the perishable items for this, so I made some chicken filling last night for dinner and for lunch today. I ate most of my chicken last night so had half chicken and half beef today. Beef seemed fine, but maybe it was just too too spicey?? I'm not sure. Whatever the case, I feel stupid and also worried because I can't afford to be sick for my appointment tomorrow. I also still need to cook dinner and that's not going to be fun feeling this way, but it needs to be done. I just hope this is all out of my system before tomorrow's appointment and I'm feeling good and confident enough to get through it.

It's also just very possible this is being more aggravated from the IBS anxiety. I mean, I'm very anxious about all of this right now. VERY much so! :/ I'm not sure if I should try to take a clonazepam tablet or take one tomorrow maybe, but I fear this might be a feeling I might have for awhile.

I haven't had but a second to look at my list from therapy and even then, it wasn't a thorough look. But I know of at least one big thing to address, although I just don't see any solutions for this. Am I having doubts that my T will be unable to provide a y solutions? Yes! Because she hasn't done anything like this so far. And that just makes this whole thing turn my stomach. I could say more, but I'm likely just babbling at this point. Hugs!

Ok, I can't believe I forgot I had this in my email as well as on the PC. Wasted all day! Anyway, since I've been so nervous, I figured out a shortlist for easy remembering. I can even write this on my hand or a small piece of paper.

Morality
Finance
Work
Events/Social Situations
Weight/Health


And mainly, how to I get him to stop giving me unwarranted advice OR how do I stick up for myself/what do I say to his criticsms? 🤔

Good luck with everything GeeLuv!