do you like your new pdoc?
love
bobby
I think I need therapy twice a week.

I don't like my new pdoc I have a
new meeting with one on sept 1st,

I am only seeing my tdoc for weekly visits

because we have met our deductible.
once the new year starts I will probably

go down to monthly sessions.
Need to get going jeff is doing yard work.
I am going to take a caffeine pill, I am too
lazy to make a pot of coffee.
We lost a big azalea bush, jeff is trying to cut it back.
He is all worried about this storm
coming into the gulf. Marco and laura.
lots of love bizi

my doctor called. he is going to send the medicine tomorrow

right now the world is so awful. the wild fires in California are worse. A man just got reinfected with the virus-maybe a different strain but what affects will that have on using antibodies to fight the virus? What will happen if sociopath trump is reelected. the post office guy know nothing. He denies doing all the destructive things and won't say who has.
it is all the worse nightmare.
yesterday pudge came right over to me and leaned against me and wanted to be petted. i did it for twenty minute. abby came over a few times and wanted attention. i read two books-one about God. I keep on forgetting to pray. I had one of my lectures yesterday which I enjoyed. I am going to check out the history channel.
My stomach is doing better. My new allergy for my kitties has seemed to disappear.
I can't wait the new medicine to come. At night it is so very hard. I can't deal with the social isolation but am glad that I didn't marry the guys I almost married. That would have been such a nightmare. I guess it is better to be alone. so many people are trapped.
i finally yesterday controlled myself and didn't buy any clothes for which i don't have any room for or need.
my post traumatic stress is getting triggered by the roaches which had landed me in the burn unit for almost two weeks.

dear bobby, I don't want to add to your pain,

but real live roaches?????
bizi

yes. the exterminator is coming every thursday.
love
bobby

i am really on a spending spree. I have so many clothes and no place to put them. I am so out of control. Today when I brushed my teeth there was no blood.
I just bought a special mouthwash that you use for seven days and four times a day and it helps to heal the gums. It is a Colgate product.
today I will practice using my cell phone. Dorot provides now a free service using Lyft(sp) for doctor's appts but you need a cell phone.
today I didn't spot any roaches yet.. My stomach is okay. Maybe that lemon and water and baking soda and water to help my stomach were irritating my gums.
when i woke up pudge was lying next to me. then abby visited. my stomach is better.
it is so scary to be out of control and be on a spending spree. i am embarrassed how many clothes i have.it is so hard being bipolar.

i can't use the free car service. i might have to wait 10 minutes before it comes and no way can i stand that long. that is so depressing. it is so hard to be both disabled and bipolar. i was partially using the excuse of saving that money to buy more clothes. i was also fighting depression. at least i haven't gone out and bought scotch. i have really been thinking of that to try to beat the depression.
my father was an alcoholic because he finally told me it made him feel good.

I am sorry about the roaches triggering you. we get them often here in the south, they live in the oak trees.
Sorry about your spending spree.
love,
bizi

Dear sweet Bobby, my heart is breaking! You are so loving & appreciative. You try so
hard to fix things & you feel very thankful to those who help you. You are so special in so many ways Bobby! God bless you dear friend! :grouphug: :hug: :circlelove: :boy(music):