i heard from kathy and she said to stop emailing her and that she can't sleep and i must have been dreaming that she didn't say she would prefer me to not talk about my therapist. my thoughts don't get confused. she also wrote that she was only asking if a mutual friend was calling but she didn't say that but said who has been calling me. she still wants to be friends. she said that was a personal question about my asking her if she prays but she did pray for my happiness. she said i could call her.

the building said they were ordering me an ac. my big fan came and i just directed on me. i hope i don't get a cold. i had ordered a mouth wash for gums and i think it worked. my gum doesn't hurt anymore. my finger still hurts from last weeks fall.
i usually have trouble getting my antidepressant but this time was easy.
pudge got groomed yesterday.. the poor thing was in her container for 45 minutes. they were late picking her up. she came back within the hour and at first i thought she died. she was fine and so active. i have never seen her be so active. she slept on the bed all night. they didn't add anything to the cost which they sometime do
my depression is gradually lifting but i am still very anxious. i am very upset about kathy and not sure what i will do.
i feel nauseated and my stomach hurts.
robert offered to take me to the doctor because i was dizzy and nauseated yesterday. i thought that was so kind but the dizziness stopped. i looked on the internet about the effects of heat but didn't have most of them.

nausea, hate that feeling the only thing worse than that is actually thrhowing up.hate that! glad you are better today.
love you bizi

suri was really special. she never complained about her cancer and went so much through it.
she tried s hard to beat it using alternative and traditional medicine and even went to china twice.
when she died my stomach really started acting up big time. ibs is awful. i was up most of the night with discomfort. i just had some lemon juice.
I am terrified about the virus. that has made my ibs worse. Fauci predicted that we might have 100,000 cases a day soon. i think it is going to get worse until they make a vaccine. i blame trump so much. i live in ny and think that cuomo has done a splendid job. i don't about you but i have only left my apartment once.
i am just so scared. my kitty cats are wonderful. one of my volunteer called me last night after five. i got scared that he wasn't going to call. that was so nice.
love and kisses
bobby

the super is coming up soon. i should get an estimate after 12. both people in management said don't worry about the lease. everything is slowed because of the virus.
fondly
bobby

bobby, this should provide you some comfort when he said don't worry about it. sorry you are dealing with so many stressors.
have a good day.
love bizi

i have been watching too much tv again and i am terrified and the antidepressant isn't working. i had a lovely time talking to aaron last evening. i asked him more questions about kant. he mentioned the book of five rings. i have read half of it.
today i talk to my therapist

i am not feeling better. i am feeling so weak and nauseated and my stomach is still bothering me.
love
bobby

Bobby

I'd either go to doctor or call if it doesn't get better in a day or two it's probably due to.the heat and not feeling like eating

my nerves are on fire. my ooma stopped working and i unplugged etc. wrote robert for help. my two volunteers are calling after 5. a little while later it worked.
yesterday i was so constipated i took two bottles of magnesium citrate and nothing happened. i catasphozed and started thinking i was going to have an operation. i took a suppository this morning and i went and went and went. i am losing it.i am so anxious.pudge stayed with me all night. i couldn't sleep

Dear Bobby, I'm so sorry you are suffering this way. My heart feels so sad. If you only knew how special you are! Life is hard, much of the time. But the way we can help each other is a mechanism God gives us to somehow create a harmony that helps us all. You really are a very special contributor to this ecosystem of ours. Thank you, dear friend!