every friday morning i speak with a pastoral intern for half an hour.. she is graduating this spring. i just realized it is sort of like a miracle because in a way it is like talking Suri.

I am glad that you feel good about suri. nice to have her to talk to.




BOO!
we are going to watch the symphony perform live streaming.
they always do a concert for halloween. the kids in the audience love to dress up, the orchestra dresses up too.
bizi

suri is dead=she died last december.
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bobby

I knew she died bobby.
my communication gets misinterpreted.
sorry this was one of them.
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bizi

not to worry. could emily be a gift from suri? I wonder if I should mention it to Emily.
Yesterday I hardly sleep and it is happening again. Even my neck hurts. I wonder if that is from when I hit my head on the bathtub, My ankle is acting up. rats.
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bobby

just donated a little to a georgia candidate running against that awful perdue=yuck

didn't sleep last night. just sent an email off to msnbc and told them to repeatedly mention the low percentage of virus in south east asia and new zealand because they are doing all the right things. This is making me so sad and angry.
i also just wrote joe biden.

I was so obsessed and scared over money tonight. I couldn't escape it. I was so tormented and tried to read something inspirational but I was locked in. I used to be a whiz in math but since my stroke I have trouble with it, I couldn't figure out how much money I had to survive. My best friend pays my rent, I got paranoid because this month she hadn't paid my rent, At night I wrote her and asked about it. I was scared sh@tless and thought I had f@#ked up. She answered me and said she deposited the check today. I don't think she knows how bad my math skills are now. She went to a surgeon with me after
the operation and he demonstrated how I now was unable to do things in math. I am leaving her everything I have. It could be a lot if I die soon.
I guess we just gained an hour.
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bobby

i just replied to one of my nephews who Kay called the little sh%ts.
He knew about my accidents and he didn't ask how I was doing but just sent me happy pictures of his family. I told him he had no compassion. and some other things.

he wrote me and said stay positive

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