today after eight months i leave my apartment and go to the opthamalogist with Robert. I am so scared. I was in a black mood all day and night. aaron called unexpectedly and I said I couldn't talk. He said he would call on wednesday.
this morning I started wondering if I should read the New Testament. Jesus was Jewish and a wise prophet.
I don't know what to do about the stock market. Pudge slept with me all night but I hardly slept.
love
bobby
marci keeps on reminding me to take my shots.

Bobby

Kitties can live a long time. I think your will be fine. I hope you
find someone to spend some time with.

donna

thanks so much, I talk on the phone. Aaron called the other night but I was in such a black mood that I said I couldn't talk.Robert is going to drop by on xmas day. He couldn't take me to the doctor's because his other appt ran to late. the doorman got me a cab and i took the walker. The visit was wonderful. I love that doctor. we have the same sense of humor. My vision problem is because of cataracts. Not til after everybody is vaccinated will he will remove them. I got into the cab okay but last night had a worse backache, I still have it and tried blue emu. also had a stomach ache. I am having such trouble walking.
a lot of people are alone.
fondly
bobby
the super helped me out. still need to give them xmas money.. given over half.

I could hardly walk from all the activity the day before.i can't manage to move the boxes out of the way. I don't know where robert is coming over and when Aaron is calling. I am so exhausted.
my bipolar is bad. too much pressure.
on the good side i don't have to pau for the new lamp because wrong color and the dripper that suctions to the wall helped getting out of the bathtub.
also jan 20 is getting nearer. the sm@ck.

Bobby

Take it easy today. Just do what you can

Donna

I had humus for the last time in my life. I had a stomach ache from it most of the time. finally feeling better. had a nice long talk with marci and will see danny and robert tomorrow. now finally enjoying a book.
fondly
bobby bipolar getting better-reading always helps

I am out of control. I can't make myself do things I am supposed to do and just worry about them.I am thinking a lot about God and a=worry if he has mercy on the mentally ill. My best friend Suri has now been dead a year now.
she seems so far away but but I feel pain when I think of her instead joy being blessed to know her. another friend doesn't have patience with me.
now i just have to tell her everything is fine. I am so isolated. Robert came over with danny but becaause it was seven I had already undressed. He banged on the door which was unsettling. then he spent a 1 1/2 making Roku work. he was in heaven. he loves challenges. I was in hell and kept on offering to give it to him.
My eye sight is poor and I just ordered new glasses. i need a cataract operation and have to wait because of the virus.

aaron called last night and heard from dorot. they asked if we wanted to continue to talk. He said yes. We taaled about social psychology and crucifiction.among the romans besides other things. I didn't they usually used ropes on wood and thus left little archeology material.

I bought some dsmo to see if it will help the pain in my back and legs

happy new year bobby!
donna told me to tell you that her computer is broken.
I hate it when things break down.
I missed you

love,
bizi