I rreaally enjoyed it. I still haven't gotten my check. the depression and fear doesn't let up I just feel like crying. I am worried about money but I don't think I have to be if I don't live that long.

I am sorry that you are suffering.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

thank you. last night was really bad. I am so lonely. I gained more weight. I am going to stop a pill that puts on weight.
I am going to try to read.
I will call Linda on Monday. I wish she had called me. I feel so needy. I am filled with self pity. My laxative that always works magnesium citrate liquid only seems to be working now if I take two bottles. I don't like doing that though.
at least pudgy slept with me all night :-)
i am going to stay away from ebay

do you have a prescription savings plan for medications?
Linzess is used to treat IBS It is expensive here about $465 a month I can't afford that I will stick to my colace at 8 a day. I need to drink more water as that always seems to do the trick.

hope you have a good day.
love bizi

i do. the most i pay is 20 dollars except for one drug that isn't in the plan. I wound up getting that free. that is the one I am going to cut out. I think it is making me gain weight. right now I am not depressed.
love
bobby

linzess, I don't qualify for the discount card. or else I would try it.
glad that you are not depressed.
I have almost lost 10 pounds in 2 weeks.
I know that is from beer bloat but fun to watch the scale go down.
(((((HUGS))))))
love you
bizi

talking on the phone so much with Linda has brought back so many memories about my past I love God with all my heart, soul and might. My bipolar brought me there. I think it also prevented me from marrying even though I came close.


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None of my boyfriends would have worked out and my soul mate hung himself from a tree. He had also tried when he was younger.My first boyfriend tried unsuccessfully when he was very young and another tried twice and failed. I was thinking about these things all night.
I would have made a lousy wife even though I love children. Sh@t

I am not doing enough p.t. because it hurts and spots move. The p.t. massages my lower back where it really hurts and now it moved in the middle.

Bobby , am so sorry about the S attempts. people are really struggling....For years people were afraid to talk about their problems. It seems folks are now talking more openly about suicide. I am sorry you had to experience that, so much sorrow and grief.
You know my brother committed that when he was 32 years old. such a shame.
bizi

there are no vaccines available in NY.
I thought I was going to stop watching so much new but I guess I am not.
my therapist keeps on saying he is jealous of my terrace. yesterday I rubbed it in and said it was an open terrace and good size. I should have mentioned it was a corner terrace.
i just got my yearly annunity refund.
love
bobby

receiving money is always a good thing!
love bizi