I have been walking downstairs every morning. I still wake up depressed
but it usually goes away. I am very anxious. ugh as usual i haven't been sleeping well.

Bobby

I have a feeling its more a blah feeling than a depressed feeling you get
up with. I know that probably doesn't make sense. But its awe I have
another nothing new to do day. I have a lot of that too.

But its just a I'm getting older day.

Donna

thank you so much. i was s happy. then this morning I wished i were dead.
It always happens. when i get really happy. after a while i wish i were dead.
jose just loaded the cart and sent it up to me. i am going to miss him so much. i just gave him 20 dollars for loading and sending up the cart.
love
bobby

I am so glad he plans to keep talking to you.

Donna

have you ever tried cognitive behavior therapy on your self?
I am not quite such of what it entails but CBT has helped alot of folks.
I am sorry that you wished you were dead.
love bizi

have you tried just magnesium citrate liquid. i think all the straining is bad for you and i am not sure if it causes hemoroids (sp)
could you have ibs?
love
bobby

last night i dreamt i died. it was so awful. i hate bipolar and it has gotten worse.
today i will try to read. i can't seem to get into a heavy book.
love
bobby

i private messed you. when it is hot and i mostly use the fan because the ac gets so high.
love
bobby

What is wrong with my colon????
This morning a had constipation took a long time and much grunting to pass the stool hate that. then now 3;22pm I had almost diarrhea.I had had 2 cups of coffee and took a caffeine pill 200mg like usual.
I don't think I have ever had constipation and diarrhea 5 hours apart.
I still take twice a day 2 senna plus stool softeners(peri colace)plus 2 more colace(twice a day) and gummie fibers at night and the OTC glucommon 3 of those at noon. I did drink a lot yesterday so wonder if that had anything to do with it?????

So I am taking quite a lot of pills to keep going!!!!!!!!!
I had a left over Chicken sandwich for noon today, we are going to a cook out this evening well actually 5 pm. so we will leave in about an hour. I worked today seeing 2 clients. One with a bad toe nail infected toe, I took off more than half the nail i recommended taking her to a walk in clinic so they can prescribe antibiotics and cut off the remaining nail. that is beyond my scope of practice.

then the second client was a new one for me. I used my electric sander on her big toe nails to thin them. The family was happy with what I did.
bizi

my leg and foot is definitely better. i had trouble with the pharmacy. they were going to charge me over 60 dollars extra and finally after hounding them i paid 20 dollars. then they delivered the medication without saying to refrigerate it. i called downstairs and asked if it was refrigerated and was told there were no instructions for it. i called the pharmacy and went ballistic. they said it should be all right. i have to inject it.
love
bobby