and boy do i need them.
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bobby

i am in a dilemma. one of my friends is a good person but yesterday she gave me a stomach ache. she either just talks about her problems and the worlds problem. she show no compassion for me. also she is rich and has traveled all over the world. when we talked about haiti for instance she talked about how she has been there twice and the people were special. haiti was brought up because all the disasters have happened. i think they lost 100,000 lives this earthquake and the last one they lost about 300,000 lives. i guess it was more important to tell me she went there two times.
i don't know what to do. at first i told her i didn't want to talk about the news because i am too depressed. she went on anyways.
later aaron called me and it is always great to listen to him. his father is one of 11 children. he said they had a delayed wedding reception and wanted all his relatives to meet his wife. i asked and he said 50 relatives came. they all live in wisconsin. wow
i went out of control yesterday and bought thirty books. i like the author.
i am so scared of the virus.

Sorry about your friend she did not listen to you she probably did not even hear you she was so busy talking.you were trying to set a boundary and she did not respect your wishes.


did you get the vaccine bobby, can't remember if you did or not.
The FDA finally approved the phfsir one I cant spell it right sorry.
I hope you enjoy your books what do you do with them once you have finished them or are these on your kidal?


have a nice night.
love

bizi

what should i do about the friendship?
i got the moderna one. i have been buying paperbacks. i throw them out as soon as i finish one. i think i have more than enough books for the rest of my life. i also didn't realize how many black tunics i bought.
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bobby

my caseworker called me again. she called me on sunday. i told her i was
severely depressed. i told her about zeynep. she told me i should have nothing more to with her even though i hardly have friends left.. she said to make an appointment with my psychiatrist to see if he has anymore ideas for my depression and anxiety.
he just returned my call and i talk to him tomorrow at 12.

i just had a session with my therapist who disagreed with my caseworker. he said i would hardly have any friends left. my friend linda in mass. calls me her sister. i told him i agreed with my caseworker because zeynep makes feel so angry and awful. i still have an awful stomach ache.

i just ordered vitamin d. i just read how important it is for diabetes. i don't go outside except for doctors' appointments. i am going to eat mushrooms because i read they help with mild cognitive decline. i was really upset that i am ending my friendship with zeynep.
i am thinking of throwing out more clothes.
i just threw out almost 30 tops. i plan to throw out more tomorrow. i have done so much compulsive shopping that it hurts.

just spoke with my psychiatrist. he is trying to get a higher of aplenzin but is not sure i will get because i just received another three month supply at a lower dose. i asked if i could try kava kava for my anxiety because i know he won't raise the dosage of my klonopin. he said that was fine. it worked when i was in fiji. he said to make another appt in a month. he doesn't take medicare any more.

i am manic. i am not depressed but high. i got two hours of sleep. i finished a book i really enjoyed and spent over an hour looking for more books. i am now reading another book that i am enjoying. i took a bath. i feel as if i am speeding. i am so happy about throwing out all those tops and maybe today i will throw out more. i hope i don't crash.

If you think you are manic, your doctor needs to know thisbefroe he increases your anti depressant.it sounds more like hypomania than manic.Which is more common in bp2.
love you
bizi