my internet is so wonderful. he faxed in the p.t. script
no peanut butter today. just soup.
i got on the scale and i only gained 4 pounds
tried to read but Aby kept on bumping heads on me..
i bought more soup.

Drinking a bowl of hot soup with added spices like black pepper and cinnamon can actually accelerate the entire process. These spices combined with other ingredients will help in boosting the metabolism of your body. If you choose the right ingredients then you can literally burn fat while consuming your delicious soup.

Cayenne pepper raises the body temperature which boosts your metabolism. The higher the metabolism, the more calorie you burn. Adding this spice to your meal can help you burn up to 100 calories per meal. You can sprinkle cayenne pepper on nuts, soup, eggs and dips for that extra kick

I woke up a little while ago. The phone rang. I think I slept for at least three hours. I bet it was the Geodon and years of sleep deprivation. I am making soup now so I can take Geodon. Otherwise I would just go back to bed..
I am going to put some cayenne in my soup and will see if it really helps to lose weight.

i just can't believe how geodon has taken away my depression and most of my anxiety and worrying. it is like magic.
i had taken an early nap but as I mentioned was awakened by the phone. The porter brought up packages I had ordered. After soup, an English muffin, and then Geodon went back to sleep. Then I woke up at one and had coffee and started reading. Physically I am a wreck and I wonder if the P.T. can help.
I still have no energy or strength. I had another minor fall because I was carrying something. I really can't lift anything unless it is light. I am still in a wonderful mood. I even played with Aby.
I am so thankful
love
bobby

I just emailed my former doctor and said that I asked my new psychiatric nurse practitioner who takes medicare if I could try Geodon. I told him Geodon is working miracles on me and I pray it keeps working. I did tell him I missed him and his secretary and that he was so kind and brilliant. I forgot to mention no more stomach aches.

Bobby

You are doing great keep it up. Just be careful with the falls please.

I think you might try the PT again, and see if you can find someone
that you really like. That will understand how it must be done.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

i don't think i can control whom I am getting.. when he or she sees me it will be a no brainer that i am a wreck. I haven't had any success in the last four times i tried P.T. from different agencies. One even gave me a bad back that eventually went away. no apology.
I guess I better not carry much at all. I had another little when i was carrying an empty box.

Bobby, you're such an inspiration to me. I realize you're talking about some difficult times, but you always manage to pull yourself through and keep trying. You're a strong lady. I just wanted to tell you this. <3

wow. thank you so much and just yesterday somebody else wrote that I had courage.. I don't feel it but feel very fragile.
Yesterday I really crashed. I felt hopeless and depressed.
I did read that peanut butter is very good for you. With Geodon you need to eat 500 calories for dinner and lunch.
Let us share prayers. I wish you had a kitty cat or two.. Yes I am eccentric.
Bobby

A lovely young Rabbi intern came over yesterday. This was a first. We speak on the phone once a week. I have told her about how abused I was by my family and scapegoated but also asked to be a caretaker. I know I have still so much anger and have to find a way to forgive them to unburden me. I have been saying I forgive you and dropped let God take care of you. She suggested with my alienated nephews to say I forgive you and pray that they acquire compassion. I just started that, Their values are sh@t and I call them stomach Jews.
bobby

there is strength in fragility. or something like that. It's similar to being courageous in times of fear. True strength is not in our muscles, so to speak.
Honestly, I need to be reminded of this because I've an autoimmune disorder and it's only by the mercy of God that I'm able to do what I do, but I do feel weak at times.
wish i had a kitty too, but alas, I must enjoy them on the internet and through my parents. I enjoy watching cat videos online. that's a lot of my social media content.

as for your family, yes it's hard because it's family. But even if you find forgiveness, even if you pray for good things for them, it doesn't mean you forget or condone their unpleasant behaviors. We must let go of the burden they have on us.
It's a lot harder if you live with them though, but if you don't you can just limit your time with them to holidays or something. But yes, we also must pray for our enemies, because we never know if they'll change in the future for God's sake. <3