finally i went a bit after two bottles. what a scare. i thought it stopped working and was trying to prepare myself for an operation and wondering if i would die having it done. nothing like being bipolar.
talked to sam tonight. he said he thought i was awesome. he made me feel so good.
i also have been having trouble with the computer. i think i need a new one.

i went a lot this morning but felt nauseated all night. i am going to try to fall asleep. i took my bath, threw out garbage, brushed my teeth, cleaned cups, cleaned the toilet and added food for the kitties. i wish i had the control to fast. i can't believe i talked with sam about my problem and fears i might need surgery. he was so kind

that was a lot of activity!
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

i still feel high from what sam said. since he said it i haven't been depressed. i also had a wonderful compliment from Suri who was an Orthodox Jew and married to a rabbi. she said i was the holiest person she ever knew. her daughter told me that that was what Suri had told her. i miss suri so much.

Bobby,

I am still so sorry that Suri died. Does Suri's daughter still call and talk
to you? Wonder if you could figure out a way to come up with a way to
write down Sam's words so you can keep them with you at all times.

Donna

bobby, am sorry that suri died.

I like what donna suggested about writing down to keep with you.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

i have to email her daughter. we haven't spoken in a while. i will never get over suri's death. i have something she wrote that i read. right now i can't be supportive of her daughter who is wonderful.
I will never forget what sam said to me. my depression came back.
love,
bobby

she is going to call me tonite.

i can't sleep. i am worried if that laxative is going to work again,

it worked again but i still have a stomach ache. i have to write alice again because she didn't get it. doctors don't know how to treat ibs-c. Mine started just as soon as Suri died. It has to be related to emotions. i have had chronic constipation for years since I started taking constipating medications. With IBS you have stomach pains, gas, nausea and bloating and a lot of times it interferes with your sleep because you feel so lousy. For some people there is also vomiting. magnesium citrate liquid which they use before you take a colonoscopy works i guess because it is so strong. They pulled it off the market because of contamination and there is no word when they will selling it again. one company makes most of it.
most people who have it aren't bipolar.