the good and bad news. i spent over 2 hours yesterday trying to find the price of a stock i sold this year. today i got a call back from the company. i will wind up having huge capital gains which will wipe out my carry over losses, make me pay taxes an a penalty. at least i will be legal. in a way that is a big relief.
since my accountant retired, one say 600 dollars. i freaked. the next one said 250 before jan or else it would be 50 more. i signed up and paid without looking up references. today i looked up references and they were practically very good. relief.
still not ordering food. last night aaron mentioned the old book Dune by frank herbert. it sounded awesome so i bought it and two others by him.
i really have no control over my spending. taking Nac which might be helping my depression. bought something like magic mushrooms that got great reviews.
cutting back on ac. so worried that i will run out of money.
old friend said she will take me for my shingles shot. i kept on telling her how much i appreciated that. winds up both she and her husband have also have awful sleeping problems. see my eye doctor in two weeks.
my ibs-c has been so horrible. i don't wish it on anybody.
I realized i am still mourning Rabbi Mann.

found out today my scrie was approved and the letter was sent to me and landlord today. great relief. my rent remains frozen.

Good news about rent Bobby.

Donna

that was really a no brainer but i am so terrified of running out of money with no control or family.
it is really hot but now i am trying not to use my ac.eek it is 86

86 in your apartment!!!!!?????
that sounds miserable I could not live in that heat.
I have been getting cranky because jeff says I freeze him out so I have raised the a/c to 78 to be about 76.


will see if we both can sleep.
love you bizi

it sh@ts but i am terrified now and i feel so rotten anyways, what would you do in my position? i am calling the helpline now. my therapist is away today.
love you.
bobby

I am glad that the helpline is available.
I am unsure how to respond to your question.
Are you talking about your a/c bill? keeping your apartment 86 degrees I would suggest using a fan to help cool you off. I would run the a/c at a temperature that you can sleep in.
love, bizi

having trouble with one of my kindles. the wi fi password got deleted. aaron didn't call on monday or tuesday. we have been talking twice a week for about two years. he is a joy to talk to. he's empathetic, brilliant and knows so much and doesn't talk about problems. i got very sad because i thought he stopped calling. he wound up calling on wednesday and friday. i asked him what he eats. he said they eat a lot of buckwheat. both he and his wife are frugal. they have something besides the buckwheat. i looked it up and it is healthier than oatmeal. lately i have just been having oatmeal with flaxseed and a bagel or english muffin. it is cheap so i am saving a lot of money on food and it is helping my ibs. it is a double incentive. i ordered buckwheat.
i asked him what he was reading and he said he is rereading Dune. I looked it up and it sounded awesome so i bought it and a couple of others in the series and herbert's complete stories.
i read another book yesterday that i really enjoyed. the characters were talking about augustus's wife Livia. I didn't know he had three wives. She sounded fascinating so i bought a book about her. When i studied Latin. we only went up to the augustan period. Intermittently I am reading about the later good emperors.
I am so out of control about spending. i bought a gorgeous shoulder bag i couldn't resist. I adore the floral pants that retailed for 89 dollars and got one for 20 and the other less. i also bought a few more black tunic tops. I also buying more supplement. I think at least one really works. it is made of mushrooms and i have a lot more energy among other things. I have more laxatives I haven't tried yet.
Kathy is going with me on wednesday to finally have my hair cut. I like the natural look on older people so I don't dye my hair and keep on wondering if it causes cancer.
In two weeks she will go with me to get a shingles shot.
Sam gave me something to study for mindfulness. I hope i get to it before calls.
Then I saw that one of stocks which was performing poorly had two large buys by Goldman Sachs and Renaissance Technologies one of the top hedge funds if not the top. It is closed to new customers. Joe my friend's husband was a salesman for them and made a ton of money. i liked him a lot and when we went to plays we always agreed on what we saw but Betty who was phi beta kappa usually missed the point. She drank everyday but wasn't an alcoholic. She got breast cancer. Then had a hysterectomy to remove cancer and then she died. I think it was the liquor. she was slim, ate very healthy and exercised.

I am glad aaron called.
glad that you are enjoying reading again.the books sound interesting.
have a good weekend bobby.
off to work I go.
love you
bizi

can't use either kindle. robert said he would come over.it said router lasts for about five years and i have had it longer.